Tuesday, January 20, 2004
11:06 AM

... I LOVE YOU BECAUSE.... ...

[more from ringo.com]

Chris [pocpoc clan] Host
Mon 19 Jan 04 I LOVE YOU BECAUSE....

Hmmn, let me count the ways.... But should there always be a reason for someone to LOVE? Why can't just one say "I love you because I love you"? Or is the fabled UNCONDITIONAL LOVE "unconditional" after all? So many questions... but very few answers....



- Jayd [pocpoc clan] slave
Mon 19 Jan 04

for me, there will always be reasons. different reasons for that matter.
for some, it will be for themselves...
some just wanna love... some wanne be loved...
to others, both.
other sound reasons would be...
...attraction. (omg, ur so lovely...)
...adoration. (ur the most wonderful thing ive seen...)
...sympathy. (naaawa ako sa knya e, ayoko syang saktan pa...)
...faith. (jesus, i love u)
...a lot more.... ( i cant eat, i cant sleep, i cant do anything....)

some, love because they just wanna love.
but in itself, if u will analyze,
love in itself is a reason.
which i think and believe...
is enuf.

and the BEST reason to love. _______________________________________

Monday, January 19, 2004
9:21 AM

... ULTIMATE BEING.... ...

[another shot from ringo.com]

Chris [pocpoc clan] Host
Sat 17 Jan 04
Guys, we've been talking about events, people and ideas the whole week.... Now it's probably time to talk about our religious beliefs and practices... faith... and our very own personal experience with the ULTIMATE BEING....

Drop me line now and tell us about your most intimate experience with the SUPREME BEING we call GOD....


- Jayd [pocpoc clan] slave
Sun 18 Jan 04

i say im more of a spiritual person now. by that i mean, more intimate, more close to him but not exactly following any ritual whatsoever. i please him in the manners i can do best.

i was a religious kid. i was brought up that way.
church services here and there. a lot of orgs. hay.
until i was challenged during mah college years in UP.
subjects like psychology and soc sci. argh!
and a leftist group i joined.
those were factors that led me to an agnostic life.
i was really challenged.

until i rediscovered Him.
and that it feels so nice to be with Him.
even during those times before u sleep.
u thank Him for always being with u.
for all the blessings. for love.
for friendship, and all the other gifts like wisdom and healing.

its a special feeling.
ryt now, its Him that bonds me to my beloved.
coz i dont get to take care of him now.
but knowing He's up there, looking at us every single moment...
i know he'll be fine. and we'll be together soon.

believing in Him doesnt just make me a better person.
believing in Him does make me complete...
filling up those emptinesss, hurts, and dreams i have inside my heart.
coz nobody... nobody can ever do that than Him.

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Thursday, January 15, 2004
10:58 PM

... CYBER-LIFE vs REAL-LIFE.... ...

im pasting this from ringo.com:


Chris [pocpoc clan] Host
Thu 15 Jan 04 CYBER-LIFE vs REAL-LIFE....


Is it possible to separate your "cyber life" from your actual "real life"?
What draws the line between fantasy and reality especially so if the experiences and emotions you have in the cyberworld are so encompassing and deeply rooted that they influence your behavior and choices you make in real life?
How can one soul separate it's identity from the cyberworld if he has remained "so-real" from the start that it's difficult to define what's "surreal" now?


- Jayd [pocpoc clan slave]
Thu 15 Jan 04

i say...
make the cyber thingy for real.
its always nice to have sumbd to talk to and be with online.
but its always nicer to have sum1 for real.
a good rub or tap is always nicer than a cute message.
but then again, to each his own. amen.
the fact of the matter is, we all need a sumbd... a friend, a lover, an enemy, a bed fellow, a teacher, a guide, a student, a master, a slave...
coz were social beings. it is in maslow's hierarchy of needs.
now, be it cyber or real, fantasy or true, u need company.

u can separate them, been there.
or u can also not separate them. done that.

but the lesson ive learned, one of the most sensible of all lessons:
be true, be damn true.
dont let 'em make u a bad person.
dont say words u dont mean, coz u myt hurt 'em. it wont be healthy.
if they are bein so playful and all that to u and u get affected somehow, just let it be. learn from all these. u will mature.
its up to u in the end if ur gonna fall and if its gonna affect ur decision making processes.

true. its really harddddd to separate 'em.
its like maintaining 2 sim cards.
2 faces.
2 characters.
2 u.

life on earth is so complex nowadays.
so my dear master chris, i say...
simplify it. make the fantasy a reality.

jus bec ur in 4 d ride doesnt mean u dunno where ur goin.....
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Tuesday, January 13, 2004
4:25 PM

... and then we were friends again. ...

and then we were friends again.
hindi ko rin matiis c froi. he has been my constant friend ever since joseph left.
he has always been there.
i just cant imajin myself living a day without u.
were not only friends...
we're gym buddies.
we're thai prospects.
we're diet guardians.
we're BED mates... (the bar, okay?)
and we're R-mates... !

thanx for bein understandin...
i love u friend.
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Monday, January 12, 2004
1:45 PM

... define friendship ...

(this was my letter to one of my closest friend, froi. i miss him, thou)

im so frustrated.

i dont wanna sound so demanding but i think i deserve some respect and attention. or im just overreacting and over-expecting because ive given so much, well, at least to u.
im so happy we became so close. and im even happier that u understand me.
im so happy that we're spending so much time together.
but what im not so happy is, when u always turn me down whenever i needed a talk.

this happend before froi, and u know that. i called u up one tym and u turned me down bec ur watchin LOTR.
Fuck! i said to myself! damn LOTR. he chose the film over his friend.

i told u that was one thing that really hurt me. and we didnt talk for a day.

then last nyt, i badly needed a talk, i called u up, after waiting for u the whole weekend.
u turnd me down, the 2nd tym, bec u were playing resident evil.
Fuck again! i said! im being set aside. im one poor guy with nobody to talk to.
he chose resident evil over me!

was LOTR with uwhen u needed an advise? was Resident Evil there when u needed comfort?

and wer u there wen i needed u?

to ease sum pain, i watched LOTR. all alone, by myself. like i used to... since joseph left.

now, tell me froi, am i bad?
am i over expecting so much from u?

ayoko sana manumbat, but i just wanna tell u of some of the sacrifices ive done for u. coz ur a friend.
during those times with ur ex, u never asked but i made time for u.
i found time for u that i even cancel my tapings just to make way for us to meet.
i resched them kahit na mahihirapan ako.
one call from u, i stop whatever im doing, thats how i value u.
u never knew that coz theres no need to tell.
but with all these things happening to me, i feel that i should not be doing all these effort at all. coz i end up losing in the end, or in the long run for that matter.

las nyt was one of the saddest nyt in my life.
and i was able to overcome it.
now i face the world with a little anger and angst.
and i think i need this.
so people wont take me for granted.

again, i may be overreacting. i know u have to spend time for ur family on weekends, but all i needed was just some minutes of ur tym.
just some froi.
coz im bursting with loneliness i cant wait for monday.

now i need some space. i need some time to evaluate my friendship, not only with you.
i gotta do this coz ive had enuf pain.
and what makes it more difficult... coz ur my friend.
it hurts when sumbd hurts u, and hurts u more when a friend hurts u.

but then again, i need no dictionary to define friendship.
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