god is good. and tonight was one of the best nyts ever. for tonight, a reconciliation was made.
sweety, tnx for believing on what we had. our friendship. and for understanding. i hav learned my lesson well, and u wer such a great instrument.
i love you. and thank u for accepting me again.
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Wednesday, June 28, 2006
3:01 PM
... Closing Cycles ...
Closing Cycles by Paulo Coelho
ONE always has to know when a stage comes to an end.
If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?
You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
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janice, tnx bes. tnx for sending me this. i know we always joke around abt u know, moving on. but hell im so freaking emotional everytime i think about it. i'll surely miss u. i love u bes.
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006
5:09 PM
... white party!!! ...
well, lookie lookie our pics from last weekends white party!
sean/boo, m, archie, me, ivan
the crowwwwwwwwwwwwd
uhuh, it was too crowded so we decided to stay inside BED. a lot of cuteys i should say. and the music was so great! had some bluefrog so went ngenge as usual.
this year's wp was so simple, not as fab as last year's. but still, the spirit was there. and at least, even for a nyt, the lgbt community stood up and went out. proud. and.. GAY!
HAPPY PRIDE EVERYONE!!!
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Friday, June 23, 2006
5:05 PM
... tnx bree! ...
oh god! twas d best day i ever had this week! i got a call from my bestfriend BREE! and yeah, she cheered me up. we had some remisniscing of our good old days... ... when we get to pot with cholo, michelle and franco! ... another lula-lula pot with lei, boo, and the govt guys! ... sum drinking session with joel, qyd @ masas which made us suka suka after then sleep @ the car till 7am @ gbelt parking!
oh those were so much fun times. i kinda miss goin out with u guys.
i hope we get to do those again sometime soon. =)
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
1:15 PM
... today ...
Today I will take it easy. I will accept that I've made mistakes in the past. I will also accept that I did the best I could.
Maybe I wish I had made different decisions or handled things differently. But wishes don't change the past. I can only begin making changes today. I will accept myself, knowing that I did my best. I did what I thought I had to do.
And learn from all of them.
To all ive hurt, directly or indirectly, i am sorry.
I will thank you to the heavens if you accept me back.
But i will understand if you wont.
But just the same, i thank you for making me whole.
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Monday, June 19, 2006
11:52 AM
... BED, Tokyo Drift, Inasal, & d discharged car battery ...
it was a tough week for me. really. and so i needed some break and yeah, archie and i went to Bed last saturday nyt. with sean, edrewd, m, and jr kagat! had some booze and enjoyed dancing coz it was memory lane house partyin! djs travis and toy played the national anthems of house music! bad thing thou, bad ang pics namin! huhu!
archie and me chapzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!
niel, dada, abet, me, archie syet! taba ko!
oh well! twas a fun nyt! the next day, archie txted me. he's bored as hell and he invited me to go have coffee. i tagged along ivan and we went to Starbucks SM Sucat. we had some banana frap which was really good! even if im not supposed to have some of it (due to my drugging -i prefer it than medication- stuff), i had a venti of it! then, we thought of spending more time together and watched some movie.
The Fast and the Furious 3: Tokyo Drift and yebah! it was so cool! i mean, obviously, we're not into cars and stuff but we enjoyed all of it! the last race was soooo intense it gave me some palpitations!
after the movie, we had some inasal @ BCH! superb dinner i must say! we were alomst done when archie said: "nandito pala si Rogue (of Xmen)". we knew it. we looked around. then there was this man (he was with some friends) seated behind us who has some streak-ala-rogue! we started to giggle and i think the man saw it. and maybe heard some of our talk. the guy called our attention. of course kinabahan mga lola nyo. the guy said nakakainsulto daw. we just acted as if there was nothing going on. we stayed for some more minutes then we left. lesson: do not eat inasal!!! wahahaha!
we walked for some more and bought some vanity stuff. we went to the parking lot and whoa! archie's car battery was discharged! and so we had to wait for his mechanic friend. i say it was a nice timing, coz we had some good talk. sex talk, that is. weeeeeeeeeeeee! and of course, we had some camwhoring:
malamok dun but keber!
3sum?
i lov this pic, im so macho here!
shiny shimmery!
the mechanic arrived and he did his job and we went home. oh what a day! i miss those kind of fun times. tnx archie!
before goin to sleep, bhe and i watched this fab movie:
Wicker Park archie was so into it that he insisted we watch it daw. and yes, it was so good! u gotta watch it to.
here's another one:
Just Like Heaven this one's like a teen flick but hey! i have a big crush on Mark Ruffalo!
hmmm.... i had a great weekend. and syempre, di yun kumpleto pag wala nito:
gurl while imitating her ganda (my sis) -plucking her armpit hair- hahaha!
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Friday, June 16, 2006
11:22 PM
... tinaob ang da vinci code ...
i have discovered sumthing really really shocking. i won't tell. basta.... its so evil.
di kakayanin ng powerz ng blog ko itoh.
so txt and lets hav coffee. sagot ko na... ang chika ha!
im soooo down now and i need some comforting something to just make me feel better.
oh good god. u never failed to spank me @ d ryt times. yeah. but i thank u for this challenge and chapter in my life.
i love u mom. whatever happens. no matter what.
and if we have to part bec u need to, even if it was u who we (my sis and i) have been fighting for esp the past year, i have no choice. but to keep going.
one thing is clear here: when parents fight, or whatever parents decide on, the kids are the ones who suffer.
its crazy. some families do everything just to unite. and here we are, my sis and i, not wanting my dad to come back.
maybe its simply because we have embraced this new life we have now. sumthing easy. and peaceful. when he left us last year, we were torn apart. and now that we're getting the hang of it, focusing our mindsets to these family setup we chose, ul be coming back just like that.
i cannot just agree to that.
i can always go and live by myself. and take my sis with me perhaps.
its just so sad.
sadder than those in the movies.
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
4:15 PM
... disaster weekend ...
it really was a disaster weekend. practically stayed most of the tims @ home. there was some maynilad repair ongoing so we didnt have water from friday til monday afternoon. believe me, its tragic. hell tragic. and on sunday afternoon pa, nagbrownout! bad bad bad! it felt like end times na! huhuhuhu! but of course, im just overreacting. went to ivan's pad sunday noon also coz we had to take a bath (yung totoong ligo) and watch tv too. hay nako. tamad nko magkwento about what happend pa. ah, was able to watch the ff flicks:
Da Vinci Code well, as always, the book is so much nicer i got bored a lot of times. mas may suspense pa yung book. weird.
XMen 3 this was fab and powerful! i love storm! i wanna be like her. hehehe! bhe calls me storm na nga e. and would always call my attention whenever there are winds or stormy skies, thunder and lightning! and i looove it!
Ultraviolet fantastic gurl huh! but its so good, ni hindi man lang sya natalo or sumthing. hehehe!
Stay Alive (watched it @ archie's place, sunday evening) nice one. its freaking gamey! really disturbing as well. ka-relate ang mga adik sa pc games! like us? hahaha!
The Forgotten (@ archie's too) this made me freak out! the plot is so nice. and the suspense is really intense. napatayo kmi for 3 times. and bwiset na archie yan, he would really watch my reaction hmph! asar! majorette! but kiddin aside, its a must to watch this. esp mommies. karelate sila e. tnx archie for inviting us!
hay nako. im lazy to write na. here are some random pics from last weekend:
my pretty sis very pretty while sleeping sayang di nkuha tulo laway haha!
my sis while chane ever her eyebrows
our nice plant enhancer! mwahahaha!
bhe and gurl on our way to ivan's cuteycute nila noh
eto fave ko! mudra with gurl's singing doll!
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
3:23 PM
... white party year 5 radio plug audition ...
its white party season once again. and as always, ive to produce some audio stuff for BED. simply bec i love those guys! esp dada kuron! and so within the week, ive been scouting for possible VO talents all over friendster, connexion, g4m, downelink, etc.
and so we were able to gather up last nyt @ my little studio-studiohan. was able to get vo samples from these fab and cute guys, mostly from connexion and from dada's referrals.
jeff, nabitbit lang sya ni rocky (referred by dada) (na ayaw daw magpalagay ng pichere coz he's discreet) we'll be using him as our main vo
jay, a good friend i met in tarlac before he's now based here he does really good ooh and aaaahs for sfx (sound efx)
xandrei, another referral from dada call center guy, nice manly laid back voice used his vo for enhancement
i didnt get to capture boo's taping session thou. we'll be using him as 2nd VO.
and of course, JM, my cutesy assistant (on ojt with me now on some projects) we've been friends for some time na. last saw him when we were still dating pa, he's just 17 then hehehe! im bad!!! im happy to be working with u on this. u see, jm will be editing the 1st study. great going besty! check out his worx @ his site (click the link on my linx list)
if u wanna listen to the 1st study we made, click on the link below:
for the third time, eto na naman sya sa kanyang pagiging clueless of my fabulous gayhood.
yesterday, we had some gay lingo chitchat. me, mommy mylene, mommy venus, my mudra, and mommy grace of course. it was a very hilarious experience coz these gurls except for mudra and mylene of course, are so amused of how creative the gay lingo is. on our way home after taping, (mylene and venus went ahead) we dropped off mudra @ guadalupe, and i was left with mommy grace. mejo traffic and boring so i decided to call a gay friend. i was so carefree and so out, u know, the me i am. i said something like " o ateng basta bukas ever ha, go ka na ditey kc daming keri magaudition, baboosh!". of course, maliit lang ung cab, and obviously narinig un ng ating bidang si mommy grace. o here's the killer line, here's what she said: "o ayan, hilig nyo kasi magbiruan ng gay lingo, pati ikaw bading na din magsalita".
ahahahahaa!
haylaaaavhet talaga!
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
3:59 PM
... random charrrrr! ...
im so happy. hell week(s) @ work, its almost done! last day tomoro and its a loooooooong weekend! its time to party!
i miss blogging. i mean, blogging at its finest. not the copy paste kind of stuff. which ive done the past days. huhuhu. i have never been so busy for ages. i mean giving me 3x my work load ?!? am i god? weeeeeeeeee! but im so hapihapihapi i made it! well, almost!
im currently hooked to Magic 89.9! they have reprogrammed and i freakin lovvvvvvvv it! mo twister, with mojo jojo (a gay dj) and andy9, was transferred to the 6-9am slot! i just love it! heaven!
well, thats what keeps me sane the past weeks. and diablo of course.
currently pondering if il be drugging again to lose weight. u people are so much pressure! arghk! i think were gettin some speed pills, yeah, me and my anorexic/bulemic sistah!
quite excited for BED radio plug production. its a rush thing and ive asked people to audition tomoro nyt. cant wait. the event is on the 22nd, today is 8th, and the plug should play at least 2 weeks b4 actual date. so my deadline was..... last month? nah, its not pressure. its a disease! hahaha!
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
12:17 PM
... The Five Finger Prayer ...
This is so neat and soo nice! I have never heard this before... lookie:
1. Your thumb is nearest you. So begin your prayers by praying for those closest to you. They are the easiest to remember. To pray for our loved ones is, as C. S. Lewis once said, a "sweet duty."
2. The next finger is the pointing finger. Pray for those who teach, instruct and heal. This includes teachers, doctors, and ministers. They need support and wisdom in pointing others in the right direction. Keep them in your prayers.
3. The next finger is the tallest finger. It reminds us of our leaders. Pray for the president, leaders in business and industry, and administrators. These people shape our nation and guide public opinion. They need God's guidance.
4. The fourth finger is our ring finger. Surprising to many is the fact that this is our weakest finger; as any piano teacher will testify. It should remind us to pray for those who are weak, in trouble or in pain. They need your prayers day and night. You cannot pray too much for them.
5. And lastly comes our little finger; the smallest finger of all which is where we should place ourselves in relation to God and others. As the Bible says, "The least shall be the greatest among you." Your pinkie should remind you to pray for yourself. By the time you have prayed for the other four groups, your own needs will be put into proper perspective and you will be able to pray for yourself more effectively.
in this trial times, we really need prayers. so lets all pray for one another.
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11:48 AM
... sumthing inspiring ...
oh geeeeeeeeeeeeeezez! im so busy this week, i miss blogging and reading those blogsites. =(
anyho, i got this from a friend, and i wanna share. really nice. simple but yeah, nice.
hav a great day evrybody!
AN INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT By Jack Yianitsas, Laws Of Success.
Do you want something? - Will you pay the price?
The great sin - Gossip. The great crippler - Fear. The greatest mistake - Giving up. The most satisfying experience - Doing your duty first. The best action - Keep the mind clear and judgment good. The greatest blessing - Good health. The biggest fool - The man who lies to himself. The great gamble - Substituting hope for facts. The most certain thing in life - Change. The greatest joy - Being needed. The cleverest man - The one who does what he thinks is right. The most potent force - Positive thinking. The greatest opportunity - The next one. The greatest thought - God. The greatest victory - Victory over self. The best play - Successful work. The greatest handicap - Egotism. The most expensive indulgence - Hate. The most dangerous man - The liar. The most ridiculous trait - False pride. The greatest loss - Loss of self confidence. The greatest need - Common sense.
=)
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Sunday, June 04, 2006
4:37 PM
... lazyyyyy saturday ...
it was a very boring nyt. len decided to treat us to a sweet dinner @ Flavors of China. had lemon chix, steamed fish, yang chow, fried noodles and some crispy squid heads! burp!
tnx sis! ur d sweetest!
gurl bein picky that time! she just ate the carrots of the fried noodles! hay nakopows!
after that, went to Starbux and had tea with mudra. umulan din ng malakas so we had to stay a bit and surprisingly, gurl was not bored. look:
she got a new friend!
went home and waited for archie. was supposed to have coffee but went to BED instead.
we were there sooo early @ 11pm. as in early bird! it was raining outside we so just stayed there. we waited for my guests for that night. edrewd and a friend, and then deejay and his cuzin. was so glad to see deejay again. i have a special connexion with him kc. we hav so much in common. in our POVs in life, and in r family setup. yeah! and im happy coz we are closer now than ever. im helping him now to move on. i really missed him. tnx for comin deejay!
me, archie, deejay, and his cuz (click the pic for more)
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Saturday, June 03, 2006
7:57 AM
... 2nd ngarag week ...
after 2 weeks of ngaragnezz: kadire eyebag untrimmed hair and putputla due to sukasuka i dunno y
one more week and whew! im back to my regular work load! cant wait!!!
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
11:45 AM
... blogthings eklu ...
You Are Super Spicy
You're a little bit crazy, a little bit naughty, and a whole lot of sexy. You go beyond hot - you set people's senses on fire!
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
we were introducing the station to our guests this morning and we just showed them the avp. the mom said something about matriarchial ek ek and that its a good move that we are featuring dads this time around in time for dad's month. then she pointed at me and said:
"ayan sya, dad din naman sya so maganda na may features for dad din!"
di ako nkasagot. pero di ko napigilang naitaas ang kilay ko. yung isa lang ha. isa lang!
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ad astra per aspera
To become a powerful God,
u have to become a legend.
To become a legend,
u have to become a hero.
To become a hero,
u will have to beat me.
Good Luck.
the radioslave
26yo, queer, versa/b
(h) paranaque city
(o) ortigas center
5'7, 150lbs, tanned e mail me
ym id: jaydhunk
digits: 0906.410.2526
always perfumed
never mastered
forever slaved
soul booster
godlike-ing @ DOTA all-star
ks-ing mutizens of MU Dark Lord
endless hours of KTV
DVD-ing @ home
enjoying surround sound system
skindippin @ puerto galera
mana leak
awful smell/breathe/odor
annoying geeks
those nasty gurls
bad loobeys
long hours of foreplay
for ownage
unlimited hours of lan/ol gaming
mariah's whistle tone
a good gymbuddy
a beach wedding with my love
