Wednesday, May 31, 2006
6:42 PM

... the day has come ...

oh yes.
tomorrow is june 1.
and ive set this date as the date when ill start
to eat lighter again and go back to working out.
u see, after reaching my goal of 155 lbs
3rd-4th quarter of 2005,
ive stopped gym-ming and had not been watching my diet.
and so i am now back to a deadly 180 lbs.
yeah, still better than my 210 lbs way back 2002-2003.
but yeah, im getting irritated na by those remarks
na im getting fat and all.
im happy, yes,
but it should not be an excuse why im gaining weight.

so guys, pls help me.
im not gonna be anorexic like bryan... oh puhleaaze no.
not even bulemic like my sis.
yikes!

i dont plan to do drugs also this time around.
i want it natural and slow.
maybe 15-30 mins cardio/taebo everyday in the morning.
and then lighter healthier diet.
no junk food as much as possible,
no softdrinks or juices, just water.
and coffee and a lot of tea. =)
daily vitamins of course.
hopefully, longer sleeping time.
and at least twice a week in the gym.
1st day = chest, triceps, legs, abs
2nd day = back, shoulders, biceps, abs

a big good luck to me!

walang kokontra!

some of u are gonna ask:
what's my inspiration or motivation?
well, huney, this time around,
a photo shoot come july (gyarghk!)!
lapit na syet.
its called pressure. _______________________________________

Tuesday, May 30, 2006
5:39 PM

... clueless ...

i am a proud gay boy.
or gay man, or gay guy.
ok, gay gay!
[yes, i cannot consider myself bisexual anymore,
contrary to what most gay guys would still claim (f*ck u all!)
i have long forgotten that feeling of being with a gurl
ever since i started dating people like us]
and my mom is proud of me.
even my sis and my closest family
and friends of course.
and even my officemates of course.
thats how out and proud i am.

so there, i am all me here in the office.
but this afternoon, i got this remark from
one of my favorite (bec she's just a character) talents:

"Alam ko na ang magiging girlfriend ni Jayson,
basta dapat pakakainin lang sya palagi, ok na!"

and this was my reply:

"Mommy, tumbling muna ako." _______________________________________

Friday, May 26, 2006
1:43 PM

... my gratitude attitude (pahiram mylene ha!) ...

yesterday was a turbulent day.
and i wanna thank d ff guys for bein there for me.

first, to pam,
my very lovely friend in the office,
for listening to me yesterday.
u know, next to janice, u are my bestfriend here @ work.
we share certain philosophies kc. UP tau pareho e!
a lot of times, we just have to look each other in the eye
and we already know what we meant.
and that my dear is very important to me.
coz i do not share that to a lot of people.
honestly, i was about to ask u to come sa booth sana
coz my mind was really pulsating with i dunno what feeling it was.
a mix of anger and sadness and hurt and pain and sumthing else.
u know how much HARDwork we are doing and i dunno...
maybe God just wants to challenge me some more.
i know, i know, she didnt mean to hurt me or anyone else.
but really, i was hurt. i am human.
but the good thing was, i was able to stand up again.
that's where the dilemma was in the 1st place
--- i was probably being judged as not performing well,
but hey! i know i am REALLY working hard.
i am not even complaining, coz i f*ckin love my work.
i really do!
so there, before i was about to call u, u were there,
u came inside (syet, parang anal sex itoh???)
and u listened to me.
and i am really thankful.

second, to janice, bes,
like pam, u went inside too (ooohhh!)
probably to check on me.
and yes, thank u for listening.
thank u for not letting me down,
and for standing up for me.
God is good for sending u to me.

third, to noel.
this time around, i am the one who needs a LOT of support.
and thanks for extending your hand (okay, time for orals now!)
i really appreciate it bro.

lastly, to my boss.
i love you. i mean it.
as i told u, i know where ur coming from.
of course i can say to you that i am hurt, u were hurt too.
u got disappointed, and i am sorry for that.
i believe it was just lack of communication and coordination.
but otherwise, were fine.
oh you, you superwoman, i envy you.
someday, ill be like you.
but even if that day comes, i will still look up to you.
u will always be an inspiration to me.
a major one.
(or majorette as what lengleng/allen prefers)

oh, and God.
how can i forget you? stoopid me.
thanks for making me strong in all these times.


on a lighter note (as in note? hmmmmmmm...)


thanks to all my friends in connexion.org
who responded to my message about my ex
who i wish multiple deaths up to now.
thanx for cheering me up, for making me feel its just okay,
and for asking me what happened. (duh!)
GAWD, there was a link there that links to my site!
yet some people reacted differently.
but yeah, thanx for replying.

to all ive met last night @ BED,
esp my old friends who love bluefrog
u were all fabulous last nyt!
but the bluefrog was really deadly last nyt.
DEATH TO ME that i had to leave earlier
than how in planned to.
good thing archie already has his booking. AWARD!
and boo/sean needed to go home too for recovery.
(i am spreading rumors that he's got std.... evil!!!)

so there.
im gonna get back to work now.
u got me right, its crunch time for me.
till the next 2 weeks perhaps. _______________________________________

Tuesday, May 23, 2006
11:18 AM

... death to my ex!!! ...

i say go back to ur mommah!
but again, thats gonna be hard!
u know wat i mean by that huh!

im just so pissed off today.
after losing an earplug for my w550i,
and my bf not even caring for it,
i got another message from a friend
telling me that my ex is bugging him!!!
and the devil wants to meet him @ BED!
the nerve of that bastard!
of course my good friend knows what the real intention is.
and he doesnt deserve sum nasty treatment like this.
hay naku!

grrrrrrrrrrr!
i wanna spread all his nasty pics over the net!
i wanna mass mail his pics while sucking my dick!
im not kidding, i have those!
i still have those!

damn it! he's not yet over me.
im just so hard to forget.
i hate it.
i fucking hate it!!!

dieeeeeeeeeeeeee!


die bastard!
y cant u just leave me alone?!? _______________________________________

Monday, May 22, 2006
5:55 PM

... wow dota time! ...

weekend was a very lazy one.
just stayed @ home and adik mode with Diablo 2 LOD.

but yes, last nyt, (we found time teehee!)
bhe and i went to Starbux and then to
N E T A P H O R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dota tym!
as what alex would always say.
god we miss u alex. dota will never be d same without u.
we miss u. dota misses u.


thats me, i know i know,
im really gaining weight!
its that time of the year okay?


ivan kagigising lang hehe!

and hey! have u heard that there's going to be a bb.pque?

here's our entry:


bb. pque 2018 _______________________________________

Saturday, May 20, 2006
10:44 AM

... dada's bday @ BED ...

yey! its that time of the year when drinks pourrrrrrrrrr!
its dada's bday bash last nyt @ BED.

too bad archie's not so in the drink mode.
well, at least we get to maximize the nyt feasting our eyes
with the cute guys we saw last nyt.
yay!

looki looki!


that's me with archie and angelo
(ex ko sila pareho hehehe! fling fling!)

CLICK 4 MORE PICS HERE

_______________________________________

Friday, May 19, 2006
10:47 AM

... i got in! ...

u got that ryt baby!
its this fab online school
by Ethan Reynolds!

click click!

(will be including it as well on my links, yebah!)
now that's real blog love.... hmmmmm...




for boys only. *wink* _______________________________________

2:24 AM

... finally... ...

i got a compatible version
of diablo 2 LOD, patch 1.08
and char editor with items, a jamella ver8beta!

yeah, kinda crappy, but at least its working!

bye v1.02 and 1.07!

ill upgrade to v1.09 or higher later na.
kakapagod na magreintsall ng magreinstall.

diablo here i come!


here's what a diablo town portal looks like _______________________________________

Thursday, May 18, 2006
10:53 AM

... random totots on a so-so thursday ...

*

woke up really early coz had to prepare breakfast since mudra is out of town.
hay kamiss ang mudra!
even si gurl, mejo tulala when she woke up!
she went to mudra's bed and said "nyoya?"
hehehe! kakatuwa si gurl!
so there, was up 530am coz bhe is there na from work.
had ham and egg sandwich. burp!

**

im really pissed off na.
cant really figure out how to patch diablo 2 lod.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
tried several times, several techniques, several patches and patches!
and it still crashes!

i think the message here is clear:
play it without cheats!
(ohh, i think ive said this yesterday na... oh yebah!)

hmmmmmm, cguro magsawa muna ako playimg GOD-MODE hahaha!
then ill play it na w/o cheats!

***

had a grand time chika-ing about lenses and all with mylene!
she's the only person who understands and shares this madness in me!
yey!
here's to vanity! death to simplicity!

****

i just read vyron's latest blog entry.
and oh boy, its just so full of emotion.
u see, i love reading things like these.

if u wanna read it, go to my links
and click on vyron.
(I heart NY)

*****

im happy that bhe and i has adjusted to our scheds.
=)

******

vincent (dubai) called me very early this morning.
glad to know he's doin fine.
he myt go home on sept this year, not yet sure thou.
hirapan din daw sya mkaipon dun dahil liit sahod.
malungkot pa. _______________________________________

Wednesday, May 17, 2006
10:35 AM

... random totots on a wengweng wed ...

*


cheapangang cab

mom is leaving for baguio.
yeah, last minute notice from HO.
seminar/training eklu from DepEd-BALS.

buti na lang supermom mom ko!
mas mabilis pa xa magimpake kesa sa pagbibihis ko.

**

tried on the new funda (KATE japan) that archie gave me.
oh so fab! coz its super tan!
as in! love it!
tnx archie!

***

still having the hyper energy i got from our guest last nyt.
dr. ed is just super cool!
kahit na kate xa e oks lang coz he really made r day!

****

sean/boo finally broke up with allen/lengleng.
after 6 months or so.
and my heart goes to allen.
poor little boy, he's really in pain now.
but i hav to admire sean for being just honest, at least,
this time around.
and for being true and brave.
ur growing na.
its a love in the wrong timing, thats how i look at it.
im hoping thou, that ul be friends in d future.

*****

im starting to get really pissed off coz i cant get a nice trainer for
the diablo ver 1.11b! deng!
okay, the message is starting to get clear:
play it without cheats jayd.

******

laff to death akesh sa latest entry ni charmaine!
go to her's, nasa links.
(the fuck sumthing ung title) _______________________________________

Tuesday, May 16, 2006
12:42 PM

... linking day ...

ive been getting really nice links lately.
here are some:
(check em while theyre hot!)

Sugar Baby Love

Mariah's New Pepsi Ad/Ringtone

_______________________________________

Monday, May 15, 2006
5:13 PM

... random totots on a cloudy monday ...

*

i had a short but sweet talk with dada
over the fone.
la lang, made chika about some common friend
who just disappeared.
we're trying to figure out why,
but decided that its not even a good idea.

**

we had a bday celebration @ d office today!
chief mike is 74. yes, 74!
nanay lyn is golden na!
kumareng marissa is 39.
daming fud! JUBESITY na naman!

***

was able to have a brief updating with my boss today.
talked about some feedback and insights from the cdo congress.
she looked really bad, that's bec she's sick.
told her to rest coz she badly needs it.
but she's still working and she's even going to our
tarlac station tomorrow to fix some things over there.
grabe this lady, i really admire her.
supergurl, superwoman, supermom,
superboss!
all rolled into one!

****

had some small talk with janice,
my bestfriend in the office.
magkasama din kmi magwithdraw and magalis ng antok.
hey! that's hitting 2 birds with one stone ha!

*****

1st day to wear our new set of barong uniform.
yes, i wear barong, may problema?
and i fucking hate the fit.
its because i gained weight.
imean, mganda ung fit nito dati, kaasar!
now im pressured to lose weight
(which is a good idea after all).

******

got a txt from jc (dasma).
he's got an interview this thursday @ strata
so he's gonna drop by na din.
i miss this guy so im quite excited.

*******

got a call from jay (tarlac).
sounded problematic and he's also
dropping by the studio this thursday.
he wont say what his problem is, personal daw dapat.
*wonder wonder wonder

********

bhe gets his 1st pay today.
what a relief. i hope tulkoy tuloy na.

*********

alex (japan) called me this morning.
asking me how to contact his bf dennis,
who was txting me naman last nyt
informing me to give his alternate number to alex in case he calls.
he's in the province daw kc, ala signal ang globe. _______________________________________

10:53 AM

... mudra's day ...

yey!
its mudra's day!
and she cooked spag and chix for lunch!
may honey cake din, yum!

as what pompom says,
JUBESITY!

to all mudras,
hapi mudras day!


our loving mudra
wearing her pamatay mudra outfit


OMG!
she'll kill me if she sees this pic


our little angel
what cha duin baby?


after lunch emotera


********************

the rest of the afternoon,
bhe and i played Diablo.

and we had to argue about sum stuff
and so i didnt sleep @ Mirage.
hay. pasaway kc.
i dont wanna talk about it. _______________________________________

Friday, May 12, 2006
8:34 PM

... kaya pala ...

lately, for the past 3-4 days,
ive been getting weird visions of my
used-to-be dad.
really weird.
this one time, while on my way to work,
i was on a bus,
the guy next to my seat
really looked like him!
only a little older
and more stressed i guess.
yung tipong ngarag na ngarag.
for almost 15 minutes or so,
i thot it was him.

this was just one of those,
the others were not as vivid.

also, last week,
ive been getting calls
(and missing all of them on purpose)
from my aunts, sa father side.
yeah.

and then this morning,
my cuzin, father side,
-she's d closest to me-
txted me.
and gave me the news that
our ama (grandfather-father side)
is sick and is in town.
cancer.

i felt sad.
but i can do nothing bout it.
id be offering prayers perhaps.

ok ok ok.
its not even an issue of forgiveness nor pride.
my take on this is simple:
ive more impt things to attend to.

tama na nga.
baka isipin nyo pa e masama ugali ko.

di naman masyado.

i would understand, really,
ur reactions.

but then again,
it won't matter. _______________________________________

Thursday, May 11, 2006
6:04 PM

... kacheapan ...

i dunno y all of a sudden,
after not communicating with u for the longest time,
i will get a message (from a friend in downelink.com) like this:
(im talking bout an ex here, btw)


00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

******* Wrote:
>I added ******** before. I guess he checked out my page and read your testi... nagalit yata. nagmessage kasi e... sabi niya kung kilala ko daw ba siya, basahin ko daw testi nya sa page mo... S=(

-------
JAYD Wrote:
>oh. when was this? ex ko yan. last year pa ako nkipagbreak s knya.
so sorry.

-----
******* Wrote:
>i think last 2 days ago. baka kasi he thought something fishy happend between us... hehehe, kaw kasi yung testi mo eh... ;p

-----
JAYD Wrote:
oh. i call that bitterness. tnx for d info buddy! mua! =P

00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

OMG!
he is really....




as in! its an inner davah?!?

u see, my mom's got her share as well.
after u getting back the stuff that were supposedly "gifts"
just this week, u (or ur mother) wants em all back?

oh come on!

actually, that's not even an issue for us, me and my mom.
kami pa.
but what we wanted sana is for u to show up,
with ur mom or whoever herodes,
with ur faces!
y do u have to use your helper to ask for those items?
y cant u show up?

OH, COME ON!

i tell u, ive asked friends and u know what they all have to say?
ur a major freaking KSP.

if u dunno what that means...
then go back to ur momma.
ooops. sorry.
that wud be hard.
u know why. _______________________________________

2:11 PM

... gurlllllllll ...


ang aming mkulit na angel
sobrang likot at kulit mo na!
taken this morning while breakfast kmi _______________________________________

10:16 AM

... love... haaayyyy ...

truly it is soooo heart warming whenever i feel love,
whenever i feel it being felt by others.

im pasting here one blog entry
of a very dear friend to me.
will just be replacing the names with *****
for anonymity.
closet queen kc.
joke.
=)

here it is:

====================================
Wednesday, May 03, 2006

forever?

tatagal kaya syang alagaan ako? minsan naiisip ko nakakaawa naman si ***** pag nag kataon kasi ang dami kong sakit. parang kumuha lang sya ng pasyente para alagaan habang buhay. minsan nga ayoko ng sabihin sa kanya yung mga nararamdaman ko...kung may masakit sa akin or kung may makirot. nadadagdagan lang yung stress nya. kasi naman parang sinalo ko yung mga sakit sa mundo. every time na nag papa check-up ako lagi na lang may na di-discover na bagong sakit ko.

kaya minsan naiisip ko na wag na lang mag pakasal ever kasi nga ang dami kong sakit and ayoko namang bigyan sya ng burden forever. pano nya mae-enjoy yung buhay kung lagi akong may sakit.

haaaay
posted by *** at 1:47 PM
====================================

ang ganda d ba?
its true love, i must say.
its like this:
u know that u really love a person when the mere thought of u hurting him/her hurts u. un bang tipong iniisip mo pa lang sya na nasakatan o nahihirapan, doble na agad ung hirap o sakit na madarama mo.

haaaayyy. that's what im experiencing now.
sobrang piga to the max sa budget just to make ends meet.
but always, ALWAYS putting into consideration his needs.
parang di ko kaya makita ang sarili ko na having a very
festive and flavorful dinner habang sya, pandesal na kahapon pa ang kinakain.
hay, naiiyak tlga ako.

again bhe, this too shall pass.

may awa ang diyos. _______________________________________

Wednesday, May 10, 2006
1:35 PM

... work ...


im so tambak na with work.
but yeah, i love this so much.
catching up slowly now...
whew!

i have to thank my boss for continuosly
guiding me and enlightening me.
for all the forgiveness in all my shortcomings.
for being sooooooooooooooo kind to me.

ok back to work! _______________________________________

1:20 PM

... fafaratsee feat alex part 7 ...

this is now the last time we'll have tazo tea together.
also the last time we shop.
and last time to really make fun of the simple things in life.
times two? chaps!


while eating coconut salad
i think he's trying to examine the fruits


now trying to taste the cum, este, the juice


and yeah, after salad, palabok.
that's what i call ideal meal.


@ the sm hypermarket
chaps ka d2 ning!


sippin on some green tea

then we figured that there was good lighting. and so:


emote!
(i love this shot! i wanna send this to starbucks!)


who were u thinking ba?


trying to be philosophical


trying to be macho?


ok ok ok. i know u love this shot.
so im making it the finale.

he left the country yesterday at around 2pm.

oh gee.
time flies fast talaga.
kailan lang e kadarating mo lang,
now ur leaving na.
but thanx for extending ur stay here.
kahit na nagulo nyo ni dennis ang bahay nmin ni bhe,
keri lang!
as always, i always have the best times with u.
magaan ka kasi ksama, kahit pasaway.
simply put, we easily connect.
and even if we are going to be miles apart,
we know deep in our hearts,
we can count on each other.
no matter what.
come what may.
bow.

and there's always next year.

take care always kafatid.

we'll surely miss you.
we love you.

have a safe trip back to japan japan! _______________________________________

Monday, May 08, 2006
9:15 PM

... fafaratsee feat alex part 6 ...

this was the last morning i shared with
alex. i didnt give him the curse this tym thou.
i dunno y. mejo nasenti ako.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
but it still went crazy. look:


sungit sungitan
i dunno y
maybe bec of the heat?
or bec he misses dennis


oh yeah, he misses dennis.


and misses their..... perhaps.


sweety, i'll definitely miss being with you.
u keep my mornings a little lot easier to wake up to.
i will miss ur "chaps ka ning!" whenever u wake up.
or whenever u wake us up. _______________________________________

11:09 AM

... fafaratsee feat alex part 5 ...

today, alex says goodbye to his bf dennis.
and we say goodbye to netaphor as well.
sad...


dennis and alex
really cute couple
we all thought that it was just summer fling
u know, but it wasnt.
may u be both strong! go go!


and yeah, goodbye netaphor.
u have been our sanctuary.
we missed bed and ktv just for u!
we stayed for hours at ur hub,
as in pamorningan.
we'll miss kuya chaps and kuya chubby
na keri daw sabi ni jun.
im not sure if i and bhe will still play there.
maybe not for now.
it just feels weird to play there na wala ka alex.
and im not gonna play dota muna rin for now.
syeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!
diablo tym muna ako. =P _______________________________________

Saturday, May 06, 2006
10:00 PM

... fafaratsee feat alex part 4 ...

today was a crazy day 4 us! twas sooooo hot!
but that was not an excuse for me to stop.
so here's today's photos of alex:


i tod u it was sooooo hot.
so cge, shower shower and then
pose with the big tummyness!


oooops! mas mabilis ako sayo! ayan huli ka!
black undies? hmmmmmm....


go streeetch mo pa! at show ang kelis!


of course, patuyo ng hair
(pronounced as "her" ala koya germs)


sitting beside the ref
wishing there's plenty of food
coz we're really starving that time

oh boy..... time is ticking fast sweety.
ull be leaving us really soon.
haaaaaaaaaaayyy.......
i miss the fun times already. _______________________________________

Friday, May 05, 2006
12:50 PM

... more about tazo tea ...

im sharing this stuff to all of u
since i want u 2 appreciate it as well.

click the link below to know more about tazo teas.




i just bought a box of Refresh (mint) @ Starbucks Emarald Avenue.
and i think its better than Zen (green).
But yeah, like bhe said last nyt, while sipping,
im missing Calm (chamomile)... _______________________________________

12:40 PM

... fafaratsee feat alex part 3 ...

here's part 3 guys and gals:


it took me a while before i decided to put his
undies hehehe! but not a single second to put the fissan foot powder!


i searched and searched and found the broomstick!


then the frying pan!

there u go!!! _______________________________________

Thursday, May 04, 2006
7:02 PM

... fafaratsee feat alex part 2 ...

on part 2, here's what i got:


a really nice shot of him and his bee (dennis)
taken last nyt @ chef d angelo
we were supposed to watch MI 3
but ate na lang instead
di na rin kc aabot sa oras si ivan


cge sipsip! sipsip lang ng sipsip!


and now, kutkot! kutkot lang ng kutkot!


the looks-like-you're-in-an-airplane shot


the un-closeup smile


emotero shot

those were shots from last nyt.
eto naman ang alam kong inaabangan ninyo...
my curse!


nilagyan ko naman sya ng
rejoice shampoo bottle, packaging tape,
empty soap boxes, an airspray, and....


tada! a calculator!


a more fun view of it


and look what i got!
ang halimaw ng buhay ko, weeeeeeeeeeee! _______________________________________