Tuesday, August 30, 2005
11:10 AM

... sick 4 d weekend with the sims ...

deng! i got sick for the weekend. now that's what i call timing!
i had fever and cold thurs nyt. huhuhu.
im so sad i had to resched partyin @ BED (Friendster Bash) with boo till friday nyt.
wasnt able to go to work friday, cancelled taping.
but when friday night came, i stil have fever, and even had diarrhea!!!
but i have to go to BED, coz boo waited for this for so long.
its been 4 months since he last partied @ BED.
and so we partied. and here's our latest pic together:

who's disguising and who wants to look more manly?

after partyin, we had breakfast @ Silya. then we went home.
i woke up with nausea and with maroon pupu.
i could not go to work for OD. deng again!
had a checkup, food poisoning ek ek. kaya pala masama pkiramdam ko.
complications lang yung fever at nausea.
so i had to stay home.

and since my PC was already repaired last thurs, i reinstalled The SIms.
and boy, the new cheats are really powerful! at least i get to feel filthy rich even just with Simoleans (Sims money/currency).

The Sims, My Virtual Neighborhood

well, thats basically what happened last weekend.
of course, had a grand time cooking for joseph's mom, it was her bday last Sunday.
i cooked Chicken Pastel, hehehe!

and btw, i bought my own flash disk and mp3 player in one. 256mb lang.
Its Apacer Audio Steno. well, i can manage my files easier now!
and i wont be bored during my travel to and from work.

with mah nu mp3 player, here comes autistic jayd!

* currently eating the guinatan i bought from Manong Merienda yesterday. ang sarap pala ng malamig na guinatan!
* currently listening to the chat im taping. welcome back Mommy Sydney! _______________________________________

Wednesday, August 24, 2005
4:05 PM

... no south beach diet @ north park ...

hell! i ate a lot yesterday!
had heavy breakfast--- frankfurters, white bread, egg, peanut butter.
had a cheesy lunch --- cheese sandwich, cheese flavored oheya
had a super sweet snack --- guinatan halo halo, camote que, carioca
had a north park dinner --- timpao (or tiapao), almond lychee

and that means a lot of cardio in d coming days!
so help me gawd!

long live vain people!
wahahaha!

and btw, sean/boo's back from bicol! so we hav 2 weeks to party ayt?
i missed this nanak of mine eh! and yeah, u look better now. a lot better. mama ka na! di ka na mukhang hi-skul! hehehehe!

sean and i during our govt days

* oh boy do i love that chismaxes we (i, des, mylene, and dina) had @ North Park. muntik na naman kmi di mkaabot sa shuttle service. nex week ulit mga gurls!
* and oh, im starting to miss partying. myt go out this weekend!
* and oh oh, i watched National Treasure, fab movie din huh! bkit ko nga pala hindi pinanood sa moviehaus yun... hmmmm...

** currently eating (not again) camote que courtesy of maong merienda. chomp chomp!
** currently bored so im going to the other office and bring mah old pictures. will show it to them. and u know whats next.
** currently dancing to DC's Lose My Breath. aw!


*** looking forward to tonight's novena. mudra is joining me.
*** hoping and praying for joseph's safe trip to Ilocos tonight.
*** wishing i can go with him... _______________________________________

Sunday, August 21, 2005
12:04 AM

... i think i need to loosen up a bit ...

yeah.
and i guess that's d best for now.
be single. be free.
(yes, im breaking up with bhe. go figure.)
spend time with my bestbud-exbabes(whom i misssd soooo much)
enjoy my money. (im damn tooooo young to be matrona noh)
pay my debts. (dami na eh)
have more time for gym, badminton, spa, salon.
concentrate more on work. (since its gettin demanding)
have time for novena.
be a little less demanding of what life can offer.
have fun with friends.
yes. thats my gameplan for now.
enjoy life. and be grateful for every single blessing.

and then, be ready for the next challenge.

=)))))) <<<<< smiles!!!


** currently happy coz after almost a month, im with my bestbud-exbabes.
hmmmm... that's quite long, lets just make it hmmmm.... babesbud!!! sweeetik!
*wink*

** currently bloated coz its mah cheat day! and if its my cheat day, i can eat anything i want!!! dont ask what i ate...

** currently bein bombarded by txtsssss from friends inviting me to partyyyy! im not in d party mode e. i just wanna rest now.

** still high with Kung Fu Hustle. its super FAB! a must! cool movi!

if u wanne be really REALLY entertained, hustle with this!

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Saturday, August 20, 2005
11:57 PM

... u choose... ...

(got this from a friend in connexion.org.
its really nice. u choose.
lemme know wat u chose. ul c mine afterwards.)

.............................................

Imagine this...

You are driving along in your car on a wild, stormy night, it's
raining heavily, when suddenly you pass by a bus stop, and you
see three people waiting for a bus:

1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die.

2. An old friend who once saved your life.

3. The perfect partner you have been dreaming about.

Which one would you choose to offer a ride to, knowing very well that there could only be one passenger in your car?
Think before you continue reading...

.............................................

This is a moral/ethical dilemma that was once actually used as part of a job application.


* You could pick up the old lady, because she is going to die, and thus you should save her first;

* or you could take the old friend because he once saved your life, and this would be the perfect chance to pay him back.

* However, you may never be able to find your perfect mate again.

.............................................

The candidate who was hired (out of 200 applicants) had no trouble coming up with his answer. Guess what was his answer?


He simply answered: "I would give the car keys to my Old friend and let him take the lady to the hospital. I would stay behind and wait for the bus with the partner of my dreams."

Sometimes, we gain more if we are able to give up our stubborn thought limitations.

Never forget to "Think Outside of the Box."

So what was yours ????? :)

.............................................

mine was simple. the perfect partner. no explanations.
im just so into it now. need i explain morrrre????
haha!

JAYD

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start thinkin out of the box...
(got this image from a friend in friendster.com)

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Thursday, August 18, 2005
10:45 AM

... a broader perspective on things ...

yesterday was a good day for me. we (my team @ work) had a workshop and i say, it was one of the best! it was very intimate and there were a lot of lessons. funny coz it was just yesterday when i got to realize the real situation of our company. well, nothing super serious to really worry about. it was just that, i, and some of the members also, should always make it a point to look on a broader perspective. sumtimes kc, we get so much excited with sum things, or we tend to just look only @ ourselves, we only care for our department, we demand without knowing the real score, or we simply become selfish. well, after one of the exercises yesterday, i was in shock mode for almost 10 mins or so. i wanted to go to the CR and cry coz that was what i felt like doin that time. but i didnt. i have to be strong. i had to be strong.

and so it also came clearer to me that i really have to pray deeply now. i have a reason, a mission, a devotion. that was what i needed! some kind of push... now i know why evertime (during the passed weeks) i would pass by Baclaran Church, i wud always feel some kind of pulling, like a magnet trying to pull me to go visit Our Lady and just pray. now, i had something to really pray for: SBN, my 2nd family, esp our financial situation. i started my novena last night. i tagged along my mom. after saying our prayers, we bought bibingka, some DVDs, and a pink hanky. hehehe!
and i just have to say this also, i prayed the same novena before getting this job! isnt that amazing! how God works! Praise Him!

Our Lady of Perpetual Help, Loving Mother Help Us.
I lift up to you SBN, my second family.

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
1:43 PM

... exena sa taxi (na pang telenovela) ...

yesterday was a very tiring day.
and a very sad day as well.

the only thing that made me smile was the wasabi covered green peas that Des gave me.
such a sweet girl and a sweet confidante as well.

after work, my plan was to go home. sabay na daw kmi ni Des.
we were thinking if we would take a cab to Ayala or just take the MRT
(since we need to really really stretch r pockets, la pa sweldo! sa wed pa daw =()
it was already passed 8pm and di na mciado heavy ang traffic. nagtaxi kmi!

nsa cab na kmi, i texted my mom, asked her what's for dinnner.
fried chicken and pansit daw, ksi nakakalakad na si buding (our angel) ng malayo!
i texted joseph and told him that im on my way home na rin. di daw xa uwi.
and then super shortly after that, while chitchatting with Des,
i got a txt from mah bhe, IAN!
asking me if we cud meet up @ Galleria and watch a movie, kung gus2 ko lang daw. txtbak asap daw!
so, nataranta ang lola mo, buti na lang, di pa kmi nkakalayo, nsa shaw blvd pa lang kmi approaching EDSA.
i asked Des, pupuntahan ko ba si Ian (after venting to her my tampo and all)
she just stared at me, and said, yes, puntahan ko xa. kc daw para magkausap kmi. at mahal ko naman xa.
from that melodramatic moment, para akong nagising, kahit na pagod ako sa work, para akong nagkaroon ng extrang energy.
i asked her kung ok lang, and if she has enuf mullah for d cab, keri naman daw.
pagbaba ko ng cab, di ko lam kung saan pupunta, para ako tlgang lumulutang.
mixed emotions.
i was not expecting that kc.
then sumakay ako ng bus to Ortgas.
when i got to Galleria, i texted Ian immediately and asked him where he was.
was calling him but he wud still not answer the fone.
inakala ko pa nga na bka nagkamali sya ng natext!
then nagkita na kmi after about 15 mins.
tahimik kmi pareho nung una. then i just smiled, and i just forgot about everything.
then finally, i got to ask him what just happened, why he would not answer the fone, why he would not txt me, his simple answer was just bec he was hurt!
and he would not talk to me because i hurt him.
but he's okay na daw and that he missed me thats why he wanted to see me.
we went to the moviehaus na and watched Bewitched.
then after the movie, hinatid nya ako sa sakayan.

my learning:
1. i am in an entirely new setup, new relationship, sumthing different from my previous one. and so i have to adjust.
2. i have to know more about Ian. and i am not hurrying. there's no need.
3. i have to just be me.
4. i have to acknowledge the fact that i am beautiful, inside out, and that there will be times when i cannot see that, but people close to me would always remind me.

maybe i just got so excited with all that has been happening to me, and so when i had that drama ekluh last weekend, i wanted to go back to mah old self.

but i think i just have to move on. and friends, pls remind me not to hurry.
to savor every moment of my life.

coz if i wud not do that,
bka ang next na pullover exena ko e magkamali ako at pagsisihan ko lang. _______________________________________

Monday, August 15, 2005
11:05 AM

... heartache-ing, not again... ...

after just a month, here i am again.
yes, heartaching.
sad, but true.

i dunno wat got into ian's mind and he decided not to spend the weekend with me.
it was our 1st month and i was hoping he wud spend even just a little time with me.
but he didnt! what a topak! he greeted me, yes, but that was just it???
and then i got no text from him after that, until now.
i felt like i was left hanging or sumthing. then it made me realize one thing.
a lot of things, actually.

just this morning, i texted my mom, my tita kakai, and my sis.
told them about what ive been thru the past weekend.
(i think they went nuts when they saw me stayed just at home for saturday and sunday---not very me!)
literally, i just stayed at home. di tlga ako lumabas kahit sa gate.
fixed the bathroom lights and fixtures, the entertainment system and the cds, did some household chores and all.
well, yun nga, i texted them that i think im duin d wrong thing.
i still love joseph and its just him i really love.
of course i felt sumthing for ian. but i think its not really love.
maybe i was just happy being with him, thats it.
but the feeling i feel for joseph, that is love!
its something that has always been there.
and will always be there.
the feeling that moved me. and made me complete.

i want to win him back.
but i want it to be right this time.
he should be free as well, meaning he would break up with his bf, which accdg to him is just for companion's sake.
and he should stop going to bathouses na. and dating.

but then again, if i will be demanding such,
it myt not be him. and he wont be happy.
i have learned to love him for 4 years being such.
why cant i love him still that way? why not now?
and what difference wud it make?

i wanna see myself being with sum1 like joseph minus d hangups.
but i guess, there's no other joseph.
there's just one joseph that i love d most.

should i lose again my pride that i thot i just fought for?
the same reason why i broke up with him almost a month ago?

or should i go on living a lie?
that i am happy and that i am secure and that i have a normal relationship?
or i thot i had?

my mom/tita kakai/sis, they all said that i shud go for what wud make me happy.

well, thats easier said than done.

oh boy, smbd just kill me now.
puhleze.

** currently eating Fita crackers for lunch, 18pcs to be exact, 300 calories all of it. too lazy to buy food downstairs.
** currently texting with mah sis. she's heartbroken too. huhuhu...
** currently lazy lazy lazy. i just wanna stay home and watch tv, soundtrip, eat, do taebo. wahhhh! i need a break! i really need it nahhhhhhhhh!
** currently wondering who will be in earlier for taping: between sherwin (pong pagong) and celle (ate shena). tantararan!
** currently listening to no music.
** looking forward to tonight. i think joseph's coming home.... _______________________________________

Friday, August 12, 2005
6:44 PM

... penniless, work overload, and a new book! ...

deng! this is such a badddddddddddddddd day.
one, im penniless! and payday is monday pa!
how can i spend a date with mah bhe? tomoro is our 1st monthsary...
im so miserable.
two, i have a lot of work to do. while everybody else is already wrapping up d workweek, i still have a lot of laundry here at my studio.

but, i gotta smile. i gotta rest. i should not be sad.
im gonna be fine this weekend.
i will just ask mah bhe to drop by tomoro sa haus or will just go to church with him. nice idea!

paksyet! i really miss mah bhe.

** currently soooo thirsty, im so lazy to get water from the f*ckin dispenser... hay!
** currently stressed, missed gym this week. i only worked out last tuesday. maulan kc kainis. kadire pag punta ka ng gym na basa ang shoes eh.
** currently pissed off with this annoying drilling on the 30th floor! potah! araw araw na lang may construction cla! hmmm..... bka may mga hunk na constro dun ah... hmmm......... HMMMMMMMMMMMMM....
** currently happy happy coz sherwin gave me a book! its Drowning Ruth by Christina Schwartz. its on Oprah's Book Club so it must be good.

thanx sherwin! such a sweet and nice guy!

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Thursday, August 11, 2005
6:14 PM

... html stuff and the new look of my blogsite ...

yey! tnx to suzy! for sharing with me helpful tips on this stuff abt html ekluh.
and since im really in a rush to change the look of my blogsite, i ended up in2 sumthing really neat and quick: blogger templates! wahooo!!! i just copied and pasted sum items and personalized em. to hell with IPR! oopss, im starting to be bitchy again. hahaha!

**currently burping mommy dina's chocolate treat! its her bday 2day!
**currently bleeding my ear. kanina pa dakdak d2 mommy mylene and mommy charmaine eh. tuloy-tuloy ang taping...waaaaaahhh!
**currently wishing its christmas already, not for the gifts, but for the christmas break. hayyy....
**currently craving for chicken pesto @ Silya. _______________________________________

Tuesday, August 09, 2005
2:21 PM

... An Open Letter ...

the past month has been like a roller coaster ride for me.
ups. downs. twirls. rounds. what have you.
ive made really really tough decisions and have made big big adjustments.
at home. at work. on myself. and with almost everything else, including my lovelife.
even with my friends, of course.
to all those who are close to me, and to those who are not so close, u know what the hell im talkin about ayt? my life has been, well, someheow, an open book.
the bulletins, testimonials, the blogs, the stories, the postings, etc.
they are all a piece of me. and u can pretty sure get a glimpse of me thru my writing.

now, together with all this really nice things that ive been reaping, are bad events as well.
i' ve expected that.

what am i trying to arrive at?

last week, i got a letter from a friend asking me to help him repost sumthing about a very unfortunate incident. and so i did. here is the exact posting i made:



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(guys, im just reposting this stuff coz it came from a dear friend.
i think its sincere. read on, and pls pass on to our friends as well. tnx!
be safe always. -JAYD)


Content: From: William Philippe
Date: 7/31/2005 9:13:13 AM Subject: WARNING!! Beware of Jong!! PLS READ!
Content: From Downelink User Beware of Jong

This is a personal public service warning to all closeted/discreet male bisexual like me from being a victim of Jong aka Levider, also uses the e-mail add koyoteboymakati@yahoo.com, whose name appears in your friend's list.

Last July 16, 2005, My relationship with my parents and siblings was destroyed by him. I am a discreet closeted bisexual, which intends to keep this matter as confidential as possible, especially to my family. I was one of the sponsors of the free "o" party that he is organizing. The intention of the "o" party is to provide a safe place for PLU's to do their "stuff" for free. Jong violated the house rules, upon calling his attention. Jong and I had a minor misunderstanding. He tried to blackmail me (which is still recorded on my cellphone) and after I refuse to give in to his black-mailing. He called up and told my parents about my true self. After learning these, my father had a stroke and was confined at the Acute Stroke Intensive Care Unit (ASICU) in a hospital in Metro Manila. Should anyone want to verify and see my incriminating evidences, to verify the veracity of my allegations against him, please let me know. I will be glad to show it to you.

Please take note of his capabilities to wreck havoc on your personal life just like what he did to me and my family.

Also, please kindly assist me in dessiminating this information, with the hope that this kind of painful experience will not happe to other PLU's

Thank You


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ok. shortly after i posted that, i got a lot of reaction. of course, i just said that we should just be careful and stuff, thats it. no more no less. i have no intentions of pinning the person down, only to warn my friends!
some friends told me that it myt do harm on my part. that it was a brave but risky act to do so and even put my name there. baka balikan daw ako.
i said, "the hell to him! i know what is ryt and i am old enuf to do wat i think is ryt".
and disseminating this info is sumthing ryt. i cannot just ignore it. for doing so wud be like an insult to the gay community. i can easily promote parties and all and i can do the same when it comes to protecting my friends. its a small world, believe me, and i dont want u or anybody writing the same letter that my friend wrote (or even this letter that im writing).

why? because now, after fighting for what is right, i am being accused! i am being pinned down. and they are coming after me. theyre spreading rumors that i hav a disease and all, that im infected, that im dirty, that im just that! what's worse: they have been contacting my lover and have been texting him stuff about me being a bigtime asshole and user and bitch and a major player. that he should get rid of me and that i dont deserve him. what's funny: i dont even know the guy!

i say im just so damn lucky that my lover thinks otherwise. and that he would not believe any crazy stuff. and i dont care what he says coz my real friends know what im made of.
well, of course it gave me some insecurity. who would not? even if i know its not true, it just sucks when some people just dunno how to take rejection properly and would resort to blackmailing afterwards.

i think ive made a good impression and reputation after all in this site and to all the other sites. im not sure what reputation he has built, after all those "O" parties he has been organizing. im not coming clean. i am also human. but please, let us not harm other people. let us remember that even if we're gay, we still deserve respect. and most esp, respect to ourselves.

now, this is the last time im gonna post sumthing abt this issue.
be extra careful guys. u might be his next victim. and if that time comes, be strong.

poor guy. like wut my friend said, he needs professional help.



whew! thank you for finding time to read this.
stay happy. stay gay. but always be safe.

cheers!
JAYD _______________________________________

Monday, August 08, 2005
2:34 PM

... happy bday party buding!!! ...

bday party ni buding nung sunday! maulan nga at male-late na si ian sa lakad nya.
(kainis naman kc dahil tinanghali ng gising kaya late na xa nakapunta sa haus, hmph!)
pero napilit ko pa rin xa na pumunta sa bday party ni buding sa makati.
too bad ala kaming pics dalawa. im happy kc nameet na rin nya finally yung ibang cuzins at tita ko. xempre nagulat yung mga tita ko dahil they were expecting my ex. i just told em it simply didnt work out. i had to move on and so was he. and ive found a new love now in ian.
simple at intimate yung party. piling pili ung mga bisita. mejo may hidwaan kse sa mga tita ko at mejo may controbersya naman dun sa side nila jenny (mudra ni buding). masarap ung palabok, ice cream at ung cake. dami kong nakain at kinailangan kong mag-CR sa ladies room dahil walang tabo dun sa crng guys. alam nyo na un! hahahaha!

bonding kmi ni sis 2 d max at picture-an kmi ng picture-an, mukha na kming tanga sa kakapose hahahaha! and mind u, kmi lang ang mganda sa mga magpipinsan, ewan ko ba, ung iba sa kanila mukha nang losyang, ngarag at stressed! yung iba naman hindi marunong magayos. heller? party kaya un, at hindi patintero! tama ba kasing magpambahay? pasaway!

mudra with buding na ayaw tumawa nung party nya! pasaway din! =)

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10:31 AM

... THE PHILIPPINES IS..... ...

Top 50 list for the Philippines
(got this from aeron of connexion. tnx!)

The Phillipines is.....

50. where the most happening places is not where the party is. Instead it's where the gang wars happen, where women strip and where the people overthrow a president.

49. where even doctors, lawyers and engineers are unemployed.

48. where everyone has his personal ghost story.

47. where mountains like Makiling and Banahaw are considered as holy places.

46. where everything can be forged.

45. where the school is considered the second home and the mall considered as third.

44. where Starbucks coffee is more expensive than gas.

43. where every street has a basketball court and every town only has one public school.

42. where all kinds of animals are edible.

41. where people speak all kinds of languages, and still call it Tagalog.

40. where students pay more money than they will earn afterwards.

39. where call center employees earn more money than teachers and nurses.

38. where driving 4kms can take as much as 4hours.

37. where flyovers bring you from the freeway to the side streets.

36. where the tourist spots is where Filipinos do not (or cannot) go.

35. where the personal computer is mainly used for games and Friendster.

34. where all 13 year olds are alcoholic.

33. where colonial mentality is dishonestly denied!

32. where 4am is not even considered bed time yet.

31. where people can pay to defy the law.

30. where everything is spoofed.

29. where even the poverty-stricken get to wear Ralph Lauren and Tommy Hilfiger.

28. where honking of car horns is a way of life.

27. where being called a bum is never offensive.

26. where flood waters take up more than 90 percent of the streets during the rainy season.

25. where everyone has a relative abroad who keeps them alive.

24. where crossing the street involves running for your dear life.

23. where wearing your national colors make you "baduy".

22. where billiards is a sport, and darts is a bar game.

21. where even the poverty-stricken have the latest cell phones. (gsm - galing sa magnanakaw)

20. where insurance does not work.

19. where water can only be classified as tap and dirty... clean water is for sale (35pesos/gallon).

18. where the church governs the people and where the government makes the people pray for miracles. (AMEN TO THAT!)

17. where University of the Philippines is where all the weird people go.
Ateneo is where all the nerds go. La Salle is where all the Chinese go. College of Saint Benilde is where all the stupid Chinese go, and University of
Asia and the Pacific is where all the irrelevantly rich people go.

16. where fastfood is a diet meal.

15. where traffic signs are merely suggestions not regulations.

14. where all the trees in the city are below 6 ft.

13. where being held up is normal. It happens to everyone.

12. where kids dream of becoming pilots, doctors, actors and basketball players.

11. where rodents is a normal house pet.

10. where the definition of traffic is the 'non-movement' of vehicles.

9. where the fighter planes of the 1940's are used for military engagements, and the new fighter planes are displayed in museums.

8. where being an hour late is still considered as punctual.

7. where cigarettes and alcohol are a necessity, and where the lottery is a commodity.

6. where soap operas tell the realities of life and where the news provides the drama.

5. where actors make the rules and where politicians provide the entertainment. (kung gusto mo mapikon, watch the news).

4. where finding a deer on the road will be a phenomenon. (may deer dito? seryoso kayo?)

3. where people can get away with stealing trillions of pesos, but not for a thousand.

2. where Nora Aunor is an acclaimed actress and Boy Abunda is the best talk show host.

1. where everyone wants to leave the country! _______________________________________

Friday, August 05, 2005
4:41 PM

... mah kylie shirt! ...

oh! that's mah kylie shirt! deng!

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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
11:44 AM

... argh! am i getting older or what? ...

is this symptom no.1:
for the past month, ive been really really conscious about my eyes.
the dark circles. the eye bags. the wrinkles.
im only 24. and i have em all already.
been trying different eye creams/gel/formula, what d heck! even ice cubes!
and i think it was even better when i was not even curious about em!
am i getting older?

is this symptom no.2:
eversince, i only need 4 hours of sleep to make me energetic.
less is ok. 3 hours is fine. 2 hours is like a power nap.
but more than 5 hours will really make me lazy. a complete 8 hours of sleep will make me a couch potato. yes.
now, ive observed, the past 2 weeks, i have to sleep more than 4 hours.
and besides, i can now sleep while travelling, which is not so me!!!
and i can sleep even on my fave tv show! what is that?!?

is this symptom no.3:
i brought home several CDs last last weekend. these are the latest house music, i got it from waterboy Alex. i was about to play them Sunday morning but u know what i played instead? Hits of 60s, 70s and 80s!!! Morning, Noon, and Nightime i still think of you, Think of Laura, Misty, This Time I'll Be Sweeter, and the list goes on! i played the cd for almost the whole afternoon while cleaning the house. now, what does that have to say?

is this symptom no.4:
i hate repairs. i mean, clothers being repaired just to fit me. i would rather buy a new pair of jeans than have some of my old jeans repaired. but last weekend, i found 3 old pairs of jeans and have them repaired!!! well, of course, mah bhe was the one who convinced me to do so, but then again, what does that say?

is this symptom no.5:
i enjoy talking to my mommy talents now! nuff said.
it was just recently when i get to devote so many time for bonding with them. and im surprised coz i am really enjoying it. and even looking forward to our Tuesday Treat @ Teriyaki Boy. what is that?

is this symptom no.6:
BED (Malate) is my sanctuary, or it used to be. waaaaaaaaaaah!!!
the thing is, there are times when i now get pissed off when im there coz its too crowded, too noisy, or there's just to much smoke. i used to like dancing to the beats, but not recently. most of the time now, i would just stand in one corner and smoke and just observe. and of course, manlait ng mga bakla!!! hahaha! with M and Dada, Manolo, Jhayar, Abet, or whoever is there with me. what's happening to me?

is this symptom no.7:
i used to be a "border" in our own home. why? because i would only stay there during weekends. the rest of the week, i stay in the studio. but now, i go home everyday. it may be because i want to spend time with mudra, eat the food she cooked, watch tv with her, laugh with her, etc. what is that?

???

i have asked a lot of my friends about this and they all said:
"jayd/jayz, tumatanda ka na."
di ako makareact ng tama.
napapalunok na lang ako ng malalim...

???

here's the killer, i was just thinking about asking God for some signs.
and u know what happened this morning?
on my way here to the office, sa jeep na nasakyan ko,
3 lang ang kaedad ko nung sumakay ako,
tpos may 1 thunderlolo sa dulo na laging nahuhulog ang bag,
may 3 thundercats na chika ng chika about sum kumare na nakaaway ni kumare,
may 2 magasawang thundercats na natutulog pa ung lola, at may sumakay pang 2 thundercats na papunta palengke!!!

YUN NA! _______________________________________

Tuesday, August 02, 2005
6:06 PM

... mah sweet bhe dropped by just because.... ...

we didnt talk last nyt!
he slept early and so did i and he still cant find d sun sim.
that was y we were not able to say gudnyt last nyt.
so he dropped by d studio.
we were abt to have lunch but i was in d middle of a lonnnnggg taping.
gud thing jaq gave us donuts! yes, hot loops! half dozen!
xempre naubos namin. (sorry des, wala natira)
mommy mylene said he's such a cutey.
and i know u said that not bec ur my friend, but bec ur telling d truth.
hahaha!

mah bhe, ur such a sweetie. lov u more and more each day.

*currently listening to mommy mylene and mommy dina. they're taping mom's kitchen (series on food security and they're havin a hard time, poor research mats. wawa naman...)
*currently thinking if im going to the gym or going home early
*currently craving for mah bhe's sweet kisses on my neck. hehehe! boy he surely knows how to tickle me. _______________________________________

3:27 PM

... red cap ...

di bagay sa akin mag-cap dahil laki ulo ko.
hehehe!

currently eating mommy dina's homemade dip ala bravo!
currently listening to kylie (not again)
currently happy happy coz mah bhe found his SUN sim na! yey! _______________________________________

Monday, August 01, 2005
12:00 PM

... sumthing... ...

guys, this one made me cry. i dunno.
maybe bec it just came so timely for me.
how bout u?
lemme know how this will strike u.
thnx vyron!


As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Vyron Valiente _______________________________________