Monday, January 30, 2006
2:19 PM

... mu update ...

sunday was devoted to mu.
my soul master at titan is now on lvl 290.
my test characters are doing a lot better thou.
now working on lvl 320 for my command DL with dark raven lvl 50.
lakas nung pet ko. mas lakas pa sa akin.
mamayang gabi, magagamit ko na dark horse! wahhh! mamaw na!

tnx nga pala qyd for droppin by.
hot new wheels ha! joyride naman tau.
or better yet, out of town, or gimik.
like wat we used to do bestfriend.
ty sa mcdo dinner!

tnx din joseph for havin coffee with me again.
and for allowing some time for the missed bonding times.
i hope this is a start of our new friendship.
i love you. _______________________________________

Sunday, January 29, 2006
2:11 PM

... and bed again! ...

todo na toh!

to the 3rd level partying!
and this tym around, lashingan to death
and topless dancing ang inabot namin ni archie
and the rest of the gang.

so far, eto pinakamasayang nyt namin sa bed.
enjoy din si archie kahit na mejo may nagmaasim.
hehehehe!
dont worry, nex time, mas dami kang karir!
oh boy, imagine if alex was here.
sobrang saya nitoh!!!



hamza, jaydee, me, niel, archie, m, paul
tambay muna at TRP
watchin d lion dance and fireworks
keng hei fat choi!


the gang again!
not yet drunk at this time thou _______________________________________

Saturday, January 28, 2006
1:42 PM

... bed again!!! ...

i was planning to sleep na and rest coz kakapagod work
but went to bed instead with archie.
naalala ko kc bigla na nakapagset pala ako ng date
with earvin.

and so were there around 130am.
althou ive met earvin already, about 6 months ago,
i was still amazed when i saw him that nyt.
he's got nice soft features kc.
and his lips are really soft.
i love kissing him. hehehehe!

the nyt was so-so.
it wasnt party nyt but more of a chikahan nyt for us.
and a sweety sweet moment with earvin.
it was also the 1st time archie got to taste BlueFrog.
gnun din si Earvin.
kaya nalasing sila at napaupo sa isang sulok hahaha!
left bed earlier than usual, and yes, had breakfast
at the Rainbow project.



me, archie, and earvin
drunken divas hehehe!


me and rl
approached me and reklamo why daw wala
sya sa g4m vid... =)
e di naman xa nagmessage sa akin. =P


me and luwi
a good fella of mine
i feel guilty thou, coz i allowed his bf, polo,
to kiss me that nyt. sooo drunk kc.
but twas fine naman daw coz they know me and trust me.
ehem.
(it really felt good polo! one more one more!
and next time, tayo naman luwi! hehehe! ) _______________________________________

Friday, January 27, 2006
2:35 PM

... kelangan ko pagupit ...

it was a hot hot nyt last nyt @ BED!
successful ang 3rd blackout bash ng g4m!
and of course, baglabasan ang mga pa-mhin na
usually ay di nagmamalate unless may event nga gaya nito.
so ang mga sisterette nyo ay halos nalito sa kakapili.

and so nakapili ako agad.
this guy approached me sa labas palang and he was really hot.
gorgeous nga, as what his handle says.
and so kissed, danced, drank and had a really good time.
i got so horny and sya din and he started touching me (aahhhh)
and even put his hands inside my undies.
imagine, nasa dancefloor kmi noon.
halos mahiya ako sa mga friendship ko na ndun.
but mas nangibabaw ang kaliboooogan ko at ang aking pagka
e x h i b i t i o n i s t !
and then super shock ako when he said...
"i want u inside me, but please... be very gentle, coz ur damn thick..."

teka, maya ko na tuloy.
pagupit muna ako.

haba na kc hair.

echoz! _______________________________________

Wednesday, January 25, 2006
2:09 PM

... zombie ...

z o m b i e
- - - - - - -

i feel like im one
now that you're gone
i know we gotta go our separate ways
but these strange things i dunno how to weigh

i walk
i talk
but it seems like im nothing
empty and longing

its fun to be single
u can always mingle
with anybody
and everybody

but if u are with sumbody
it still feels more happy
and u always have a smile
even if u hav to walk a mile

so for now
i gotta go
for a show
or go-go

i should enjoy
now that im free
count one to three
now let's have zombie!



(i made this just now, while jerome is trying his best not to fall asleep,
and im trying to sleep...) _______________________________________

Tuesday, January 24, 2006
3:42 PM

... unsolicited ...

"If I do not want what you want,
please try not to tell me that my want is wrong.
Or if I believe other than you,
at least pause before you correct my view.
Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more,
given the same circumstances,
try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.
Or yet if I act or fail to act
in the manner of your design for action, let me be.
I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me.
That will come only when you are willing
to give up making me into a copy of you."
- Anonymous _______________________________________

Monday, January 23, 2006
2:55 PM

... bed again and had a great time ...

after my date with Alain, i went to Malate.
i met Migs, Jeff and company @ Komiks cafe.
we drank beer there and it felt good coz i was able to meet
new friends and was able to chitchat with jeff and migs.
these 2 guys are on my ym list since i started ym-ing.
but we met just last year. real cool guys.
they used to partners but i dunno what happened.
cguro just like wat happened to me and joseph.
but their case is different.
they can still manage to go out together.
kami ni joseph, parang hindi pa as of now.

i also met christian and his bf.
and froi! ndun sya. i almost jumped with joy when i saw him.
also, met RT and his friends. tagal ko na din di nkita si RT.
saw Rich also. and Paul D, Argel, and some more familiar faces.
si jr mischievous, and of course, dms, and enan,
and i saw JC too. hmmmmmmm, sabi nya di sya punta pero ndun xa.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...
you see, i seldom stay outside kc. most of the time,
sa lob lang ako ng BED.
msaya din pala sa labas, hehehe!


me and migs _______________________________________

Sunday, January 22, 2006
2:37 PM

... another misfortune, or is it only me? ...

after several times of rescheduling, we finally met again.
alain, another prospect. who ive been wanting to be with also.
met him about 2 years ago. and just like the other guys i like,
he is a nice guy and he likes the way i kiss him.
and everytime he drops me off at my place after we date,
we would kiss and kiss and kiss.
i think yun talaga trip nya: to be kissed while driving.
hehehe!

but this date we had last nyt, was different.
like our previous dates, we watched a movi.
as usual, Greenbelt 3.
we were supposed to watch was Narnia.
as he has set, i am his Narnia date.
but we were already late for Narnia.
our next pick was Underworld 2 (my choice).
but there were no seats.
the next choice is Rumor Has it (his choice).
ala na ring seats.
and so were left with Little Manhattan.
which turned out to be really cute.
it was a story about a kid's 1st love.
kakakilig. only that alain wont allow me to hold his hand
coz daming tao and we were at the 2nd row so marami daw mkakakita.
=(
after the movi, we ate at Teriyaki Boy.
after that, we went to his car and we kissed goodbye.
(actually lip smack lang, which was weird)
i took it as a sign. for the nth time, its too much for me
to hold on to him.
or maybe i need to accept that the farthest we cud ever go is
to be fuck buddies, Chowking fudtrip pals, and movie mates. _______________________________________

Saturday, January 21, 2006
11:11 AM

... kiss of sadness ...

went to malate last nyt to have a date with jc.
its friday and i need some partyin and lovin.
besyds, work was hell this week.

at around 11pm, i met jc at synder's. stayed there for a while.
he sang some rnb songs and it was a really nice gesture.
i like it. jc sings in a way like no other.
i get weak whenever he winks or smiles at me when he sings.
and whenever he would kiss me infront of a crowd.
and then we went to TRP (the rainbow project).
there we met allan and mark.
we had some dinner and drinks.
we would hug and kiss from time to time like we were newlyweds.
then we went to BED.
we drank, danced, hugged, kissed, and had a great tym.
we partied till 5am.
when i arrived home, i txted him.
and our exchange has awaken me of some sort.
i was like holding on to this feeling for him for quite so long now.
and i just felt like it was ryt time for me to eventually express it.
and so i did. and i waited for his reply.
i didnt expect that he feels the same way too, BUT...
its just that he's not ready to commit at this time.
i was soooo happy. coz he was true and so sincere about it.
just like what i needed now. a sincere guy, sweet, passionate, yet true.

jc, like wat u wanted, i will always be here for u and will never leave you.
our kiss is sweet. but yes, its sad.
its sad because we feel empty.
but nevertheless, there's sincerity and hope in it.

this special connection we have is by far one of the greatest.
im not sure where this will take us.
but until we both have questions and doubts, we just have to be grateful,
that we have each other.
especially in times of sadness and longing.


jayd and jc
sad souls who kiss sadly : love's victim of unending mismatch. _______________________________________

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
5:54 PM

... oh my... oh no... oh yes... ...

aw.
sum guy created this nice site of handsome and hot guys.
mostly asian. and u know wat i found?

click below:

Magagandang Lalaki


i dunno if im gonna be happy or wat... but i can do nothin.
its already there.

just be thankful perhaps that at least, the ones he posted are the nicer
and the more wholesome ones.



whew! _______________________________________

Monday, January 16, 2006
12:20 PM

... lashengggg.... ...

for a loooonggg time, last nyt lang ako ulit nalasing!
ito kc cla dada pinabaha ng blufrog!
ayan tuloy. gewang gewang aku!
pero ok din kc epek. mas lasheng, mas lakas loob to be flirty. hehe!
and epek din, ang di paglabas na madalas.
sabi nga ni marco, nakakataas ng market value!
hahaha! ayun, 3 guys approached me, 2 kadate ko,
i was able to dance with luwi (na crush ko haha!)
and also was able to get close to julio who was like teasing me...
hhaaay! super cute nitong julio natoh. gus2 ko sya talaga halikan that time.


me and jc
leche ka jc bgla ka nawala at cguro humada ka cr noh?
jk! pero tnx kc sinamahan mko and salamat sa pagiging super sweet. _______________________________________

Sunday, January 15, 2006
10:02 PM

... i bought my new wings! ...

i just met Jun IGN: Dark_Mamaw
and bought the wings he is selling.
its a Wings of Soul
+9, +Luck, +95hp, +4%recovery
Php1600 ko nabili coz ive no jewels

waaah! kinain ko rin salita ko noon that i will never be
buying items just for this freakin addictive online game.
and here i am, spending more for it.
i cud have bought a new jeans or new pair of shoes.
but instead bought this wing na di ko man lang mhahawakan!
i dunno, its a status kc.
i want my wizard to be strong and powerful.
and with that, i need to invest.

well, iniisip ko na lang, at least itong wiz ko,
never ako iiwan. =)

btw, gwapo ni jun! sobrang saya ko nga nung gabi na un.
kc nasarahan na kmi sa megamall so we had to look for a shop outside.
we went to his car and drove all the way to sta mesa
hanggan makahanap kmi ng shop.
ayun, kwentuhan lang about the game.
he taught me tricks on upgrading items and PK-ing using NOVA
and thats really KEWL! i mean, super kewllll!
plus explained to me his built (AGI WIZ).
i think im gonna follow some of it.
it makes a lot of sense kc.
and i have to work really hard para maaabot khit 300 na agility.
coz ryt now, i only have 88 agility.
good luck sa akin. _______________________________________

6:12 PM

... beautifullllllllllllllll film! ...

don't miss this film. cge ka, ikaw din.....

_______________________________________

Friday, January 13, 2006
6:43 PM

... friday the 13th ...

sabi nila malas.
well, di naman ako minalas today.

nabore lang.

=( _______________________________________

Thursday, January 12, 2006
10:28 AM

... hale... i love, but i hate!!! ...

its been 2 weeks since i broke up with him and it was just yesterday when i felt like crying. i suddenly felt sum gush of warm emotion coming from my feet up to my brain.
i was on an early bus to my work. not so much people on the bus so the whole seat was mine. while i was slouching, i got my mp3 player and played HALE. its a pinoy band that plays melodrama music.
while listening to their songs, the drama happened. it just happened.
i cried and cried hard. trying to hide my tears from the passengers who might see me.
i suddenly missed him, the times we have shared, and yes, the totality of my ex bf.

maybe i just needed that. some kind of outburst of strong feeling.
it felt good afterwards...

now, i cant help but always connect hale with what im goin thru now.

BLUE SKY, one of my fave song in their album says:
"coz there's a blue sky waiting tomorrow... waiting tomorrow
shining shimmering...."

i love it. but yeah, sometimes, i hate it!



Hale resides in a small-but-fertile corner of the musical landscape. This land is populated by men and women who spent most of their youth in the rock scene, but who have recently discovered the simple beauty of a haunting melody and a few honest words. The music emanates a very sad undertone which the band describes as “melodrama”. The lyrical content of their songs are insightful, sad, angry, and earnest; producing music with substance and that explores the full range of human emotions.
(www.soundclick.com) _______________________________________

Tuesday, January 10, 2006
1:37 PM

... shake it off ...

i bought the mimi cd at the same day i brokeup with my bf.
and in that cd, i fell in love with the song "Shake It Off".
only because of the beat, un lang. deadma pa ako sa lyrics.
until yesterday, i read the lyrics and poof!
tugmang tugma pala sa sitwasyon ko....
here goes the chorus:

I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake, shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake, shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake it off _______________________________________

Wednesday, January 04, 2006
3:15 PM

... AFK* mode po ...


tnx to alec, afk mode ako 6pm-10pm daily
hirap na kc palvl, lvl 267 npo as of now
it takes about 2-3 hrs just one lvl up
waaaaaaaaaaaaahh!

*AFK means away from keyboard
its like auto attack, puedeng iwan ung character
then attack na sya mag1 sa mga monsters. _______________________________________

3:14 PM

... Mimi Koh! ...



pahinga muna PCD and Madonna for now
coz this album is freakin cool!
at first, nanghinayang ako when i bought this,
but after listening to it for sometime, wahhh!
ganda pala talaga, halos lahat ng songs mganda.
specially "mine Again"... haaaay. _______________________________________

Monday, January 02, 2006
12:01 PM

... a new year, a new me, and hopefully.... ...

a new love life to bloom.

i ended it again. not again. our rocky relationship.
joseph and i.
and i think its for good this time.
i cant wait any longer for him to at least somehow, even a little, change for good, and for me.
i have waited long enough and i have done my part.
and i am really tired.
and i dont wanna waste time anymore.

its about time for me to really open up myself to others. and to the world.

i am scared thou. but life's all about taking risks.
and i guess, im ready for it.

and i hope, i dont cry one day regretting this big decision that i made.
along with my resolutions for this year.
(which i already broke on the 1st day of the year.
but for the records:
-no smoking.
-regular church services.
-regular gym workout (4 sessions/week)

it is now:
-less smoking
-more time for church services.
-regular workout (at least 2 sessions/week)

gudlak sa akin!


and here are some pics nung new year's eve:


len, me, gurl, and mudra


momma's boy


sabi nila, para lang kming magkakapatid
waaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!


jen, gurl, tita koookai! _______________________________________

12:00 PM

... WofLight Xmas Party ...


(from top left clockwise)
Edson aka kukirikabu (Blade Knight, Marketing Kolokoy)
JC aka ------- (Blade Knight, Pilot and Everythang)
Jaime aka jerick01 (Blade Knight, Warfreak hehehe!)
JC aka buhay_koh (Soul Master, Guild Monkey)
Alec aka asl_plssss (Blade Knight, AFK Executive)
Jays aka radioslave (Soul Master, Image Consultant)
Janice aka tartkai (Muse Elf, Battle Master)
Keith aka coolbliss (Blade Knight, Guild Master, naks!)

the xmas party of the warriors of light!
sarap ng dencio's crispy pata! bbq ni kuki!
gabundok na pancit! at damiiii pa!
at shempre, umaagos na mamam! _______________________________________