i had a great time with you last saturday. thank you for making it memorable. best moment: i captured u sleeping and yes, i watched u the whole time. u r just d sweetest thing, u r just so amazing. i enjoyed every single second of it. and yes, i sang to u while u were sleeping...
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I love the way you smile when I look your eyes I love the way you laugh when i try to be funny And how a tear rolls down your face when I say no one could ever take your place
Baby when you sleep I watch you breathing Baby when you dream I dream with you Cause everywhere you are is where I wanna be It's true everything you do makes me know how much I love you
The way you touch my lips right after every kiss And softly whisper that I'm your everything The way you pray our love wont die Every night just before you close your eyes
And i believe something are meant to be Cause I believe in love and yours was meant for me
i am a big worrier. i know i am. but i know i worry for the right reasons.
last saturday, mahal and i was supposed to meet @ some place. i know he's so tired and all (you know, going to a wedding @ Batangas right after a full night shift @ work) and that it is such a big effort on his part to still pursue what we had planned. as for me, i just attended my swim class and watched dvd (sex and the city). but we txted from time to time. evening came and i started missing him more. have u ever felt that kind of anticipation, the kind that hits u like crazy? the kind that you wanna fast forward time? that was how i felt. at around 130am, he told me he's @ Los Banos already. and so i told him that im gonna be @ Mini Stop, our meeting place, by 230am. i waited for a reply... and then waited some more. i was already @ our meeting place---still, no reply. i sat down and played my music. 330am---still no reply. i ate some donuts and drank some cold chocolate drink. i started ringing him but there was no answer. i started to worry. i txted my friends. some called up to check on me, some offered company. i told 'em im fine. truth is, i am so worried. i am not mad that he's late or what, or that he's not gonna show up. i am worried that something not good myt have happened to him. i am so scared that my mahal is in trouble. 430am---still no reply, still no answer. i was just looking @ d door, waiting for him. and i dont know, out of frustration, i started to see his image at every guy that enters the store. do you know that effect in d movies or in tv? that kind when the leading actress sort of sees the face of his lover at some random guy simply because she misses him? just like what happened to Carrie when she started to miss Big in Sex and the City? yeah, i had that kind. 530am---no txt, no answer. my friends told me that i should go home already and sleep. but i simply cannot do that. i cannot. he myt show up. i have to be there when he shows up! i was being Isabel/Izzy when Denny died @ Grey's Anatomy season 2. i didn't want to leave. then i played my song for him, while looking @ our pics. i started to cry. and i again felt love. then i just said a small prayer. i felt a lil better, the worry was still ther thou. but some faith kept my sanity. some love comforted me. by 7am, i was home already. i played our song, i looped it. then i fell asleep. by the time i woke up, i got a txt from him. and he explained to me what happened. he simply fell asleep and by the time he got home, his folks reprimanded him and so he went straight to his bed and fell asleep immediately. it may seem that i was forgotten but i chose to understand him, he was up for more than 24 hours. he said sorry and i accepted it. after lunch, i went to my swim class. just b4 doing my last laps, he txted me that he's gonna fetch me. he wanted to see me, to make up for what happened, to talk about it, to see me, to spend time with me. and so we met, and again, i waited, i was looking @ d door, then i saw his image, and yes, it really was him this time around. =)
3 hours plus @ Mini Stop. when i try to recall what happened, i just smile. how cud some guy who usually gets easily impatient wait that long @ a convenient store? maybe because of love. maybe because of faith. those hours were the most remarkable for me. for in those hours, i have decided to bring back good old jayd, the better jayd. it was indeed another turning point for me. i am gonna be serious with my mahal, no flings, no sebs, no nonsense. i can. its hard but i will do it. for him, for me, for us. i want this relationship to work so im gonna be a good boy. =) my friends are surprised with the changes. im even getting negative reactions... i still get the bad influences here and there, but i can always be firm with my decision. i will miss the fun, but i dont wanna miss my mahal. i love him so much, just the thought of hurting him hurts me more. im gonna take good care of him, of this. i have so long waited for this. and now that its here, i am gonna be the best Jayd you will ever see.
i am a still big worrier. i know i am. but i know time will come when i will worry less... cause i have more. =)
... pbc 1st cofi nyt w/o richard and 1st cofi nyt w/ chino ...
hay... i had to do a lot of ehems b4 pushing through with this coz we all miss him. but ey! we have a new member!!! chino!!! met him b4, years ago, and he was huge that time. now, he's lookin great!
welcome to pbc chino! nipis shot with coco sungit shot with ralf syempre with bestfriend arrc MORE PICS HERE
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
12:53 PM
... new kapuso station id ...
hayloveit!!!
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
3:00 PM
... take me away ...
my mahal...
this pretty much describes how i feel right now. and this is for my mahal. wherever you are..... i'll be waitin.
================= this time all I want is you there is no one else who can take your place this time you burn me with your eyes you see past all the lies you take it all away I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
I try to make my way to you but still I feel so lost I don't know what else I can do I've seen it all and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
don't give up on me yet don't forget who I am I know I'm not there yet but don't let me stay here alone
this time what I want is you there is no one else who can take your place I've seen enough and it's never enough it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
take me away take me away I've got nothing left to say just take me away
u know very well how much i treasure r friendship. and i wanna thank u for everything. u have been such a blessing to me, and to r friends.
we'll surely miss u.
and we'll be waiting for your return...
ingat ka dun ha! =)
jayd
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Artist: Missy Higgins Song: Nightminds Album: The Sound Of White
Just lay it all down. Put your face into my neck and let it fall out. I know I know I know. I knew before you got home. This world you're in now, It doesn't have to be alone, I'll get there somehow, 'cos I know I know I know When, even springtime feels cold.
But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, So we can both be there and we can both share the dark. And in our honesty, together we will rise, Out of our nightminds, and into the light At the end of the fight...
You were blessed by a different kind of inner view: it's all magnified. The highs would make you fly, and the lows make you want to die. And I was once there, hanging from that very ledge where you are standing. So I know I know I know, It's easier to let go.
But I will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, So we can both be there and we can both share the dark. And in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds And into the light at the end of the fight.
...and in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds And into the light... at the end of the fight...
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Monday, April 16, 2007
4:50 PM
... while waiting for coach ...
i was on time! but my coach came in very late. like 40mins late! hmph! nanood pa kasi ng pacquio match! hehehehe!
ayun, camwhore to death!
1 2 3 huli ka!
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Friday, April 13, 2007
4:31 PM
... BED Arian Party ...
had a blast last nyt @ BED.
happy bday party jeff and creeze!
with khelz (balikbayan from dubai) and his bestfriend aaron. with dada/roni ady, joey, and arrc creeze, me, fitz, and benchard arrc, jayd, ady creeze, jayd, arrc, ady, josh with chino and his friend
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
4:50 PM
... Review para sa pelikulang "300" ...
Di kinaya ng powers ko ang kahotness ng movieness na itetch! It's raining men! (haleluya)! like go go go mga anik anik at ang mga mudra mega taray ang haba ng hair production number clothing designer eklavu powerness! kaboom!
It's like go papa spartans! go delisyus fighting karne! i get so weak on the knees i can't hardly breath go go go! spapartans make bugbog the evil persia ! make warla the queen xerxes.
At antaray naman ng lolaaaaaa xerxes mooooooo! nagmamaasim ang fingerlets ng hinawakan si spapartan head papa! ang entrance pang vilma with matching solid gold dancers itetch! with diamente ala maricel! wiiinnneeeeeer! ang eye brows ha! mega shoot to the stratosphere sa katarayan!
Ang warlahan ditetch daig pa ang rineregla sa dami ng vlood! at ang nacut neck na cutie spartan...nag cryola aketch! di kinaya ng emoticons ko ang death by tamponess ng cutie spartan. huhuhu.
I'm sure proud si mother ricky dahil ang ganduuuuuuuuh talaga ng movieng itetch. like super mega walang halong chorva!
PERO LIAR SILA! binilang ko ang mga papa...di umabot ng 300. 127 lang ang mga spapartans! etchos!
(i just got this from an email, tnx jp for sharing this)
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Monday, April 09, 2007
3:24 PM
... i feel bad... that i don't feel bad ...
i did it again. hurt somebody. i cannot live with it any longer. my feelings are gone. and no matter how i tried, it has left me. and all i can say is that i am so sorry.
this song may not say exactly how i feel but yeah, this is the closest...
"....Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking But I cant lie All I want to do is turn the page I feel Bad That I don't feel bitter, alone I just feel its time, its time to move on I just gotta move on and on and on..."
after maundy thursday swim, went to josh's place @ BF homes. more tamad. more tambay. more porno! to kasing si creeze napaka-L! lolx! sino ka SOT mo jan huh?!? at muntik ko pang mabreak ang aking quit smoking campaign! eto kasing si ralf! more blackbat?!? grrrrrrrrrrrrrr! itago mo yang blackbat mo! best time: CARD GAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!! pusoy dos, tong-its, who's d killer, @ bluff na upto now e di pa rin alam ni josh laruin! hahahaha!
nang maguumaga na, atak din sila papa dax at fitz! ayun, more lafang naman sa SEX (Sinangag Express)! super bangus lapok dahil holy week! CLICK HERE FOR MORE PICS!!!
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Thursday, April 05, 2007
5:00 PM
... swim karir op d year ...
with mah new fucky goggles! splash and more splash! todo karir tlga ako sa swim this holy week and sa buong summer (rest days). unti unti ko na naiimprove breathing ko at strokes kaya ang saya! best part, naeencourage ko din ibang friends ko na sumama sa akin para more fun!
by next payday, buy ako ng iba pang swim stuff cguro like swim cap, power paddle, kickboard, etc. =)
and since im gonna be duin a lot of divin and swimmin, i gotta treat myself with a new pair of goggles! I got this stealth performance Speedo goggles for P800. its stylish and i love d color! =)
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Monday, April 02, 2007
1:55 PM
... swim karir ...
i just enrolled myself last weekend to a swimming refresher course! yey! yan muna kaaadikan ko. kakaririn ko tlga to! my coach's name is Quong, he's a Muslim. uber bait and he trains swimmers in the Phil team! y not d ba?
i really wanna keep fit. i have to. im 26 na and dapat fit pa rin para di magmukhang majonda! i have to change my gym program too to suit this new lifestyle. mejo mabigat daw ako due to my muslces.
and here's the thing: I AM QUITTING SMOKING!!! (hirap din kc pag swim ka e)
d2 ako swim sa olympic size pool ng Olivarez College swim na!
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ad astra per aspera
To become a powerful God,
u have to become a legend.
To become a legend,
u have to become a hero.
To become a hero,
u will have to beat me.
Good Luck.
the radioslave
26yo, queer, versa/b
(h) paranaque city
(o) ortigas center
5'7, 150lbs, tanned e mail me
ym id: jaydhunk
digits: 0906.410.2526
always perfumed
never mastered
forever slaved
soul booster
godlike-ing @ DOTA all-star
ks-ing mutizens of MU Dark Lord
endless hours of KTV
DVD-ing @ home
enjoying surround sound system
skindippin @ puerto galera
mana leak
awful smell/breathe/odor
annoying geeks
those nasty gurls
bad loobeys
long hours of foreplay
for ownage
unlimited hours of lan/ol gaming
mariah's whistle tone
a good gymbuddy
a beach wedding with my love
