Tuesday, June 29, 2004
4:58 PM
... deng! ...
today, i had this conversation with bb. i really was shocked and surprised coz it never occured to me that he was actually falling so much for me... but did buffer it so as to save our relationships with our other men.... unfair, but wise. kaasar!
we remain. ;)
lov u b.
jayd
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jaydhunk: dc me
jaydhunk: wat was my last msge?
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: hhhhmmmmm
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: dadating na si joseph
jaydhunk: ah ok
jaydhunk: i gotta say this: my one week with u, from the time we met, til the outing, was one moment i wont forget
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: its not yet finish
jaydhunk: if tere was one person whom i had loved so much other than joseph and other than my relationship with him now, it was u
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: you want it to end???
jaydhunk: its weird, but the happy moments that i can recall was just that week
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: loved??? so its past tense
jaydhunk: everything else seemed like bull...
jaydhunk: of course i dont it to nd
jaydhunk: to end
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: ok kala ko gusto mo na sya mag end
jaydhunk: but something tells me that i should be goin on to the next level
jaydhunk: since u wont allow me to love u so much
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: yep
jaydhunk: i know u dont love me as much as i love u
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: thats the only thing i want because we both know that we have other relationship
jaydhunk: and i can never question that
jaydhunk: yes that was clear from the start
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i do love you until now but yes your corrct that you love me as much as i love you
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: but i do love you
jaydhunk: lemme jus ask u, jus lemme hear wat u gotta say: y do u love me still?
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i dunno
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i just love you still
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: you knwo what....
jaydhunk: yes?
jaydhunk: what?
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kaya ako nag lie low na magkita tayo and good thing naman dumating si omar
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kse natakot ako
jaydhunk: ntakot na?
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kase you love me so much
jaydhunk: yeah, but uv seen how cooperative i was ryt?
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: amd i cant love you back the level you love me
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: yep
jaydhunk: i love u so much that id do whatever u say
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: di ako natatakot for myse;f
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: and for your ither relationship
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kase ayoko ako makasira
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: hope you understand me
jaydhunk: of course u wont
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i will
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i know myself
jaydhunk: i understand d stability of urs with omar and mine with joseph
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kung minahal kita ng todo
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: na kasing level ng pagmamahal mo o baka mas pa
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: iba ako ma inlove ng todo b
jaydhunk: ok. i understand
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: and papunta na ako dun
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: sa realtionship natin
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kaya ako na nag lie low
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i know myself
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: pag nag mahal na ako ng todo
jaydhunk: so did u get what u want
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: masisira ang dapat masita
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: masira
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i think oo
jaydhunk: ok.
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kse ramdam ko hindi na ganoon kataas ang level ng love mo sakin
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: which yun ang gusto ko
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: baka nga hindi mo na ako mahal
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: lam mo ba
jaydhunk: i dunno what to say
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: muntik na kita mahalin ng todo\]muntik na kita mahalin ng mas higit ke omar
jaydhunk: but what i feel.... its so unfair. but i undestand
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: and natakot ako
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kaya yun
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i know its unfair for you
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: pero i did that...to protect both our relationship
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kung magagalit ka sakin because of that
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i cant balme you
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: blame
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: you have all the right
jaydhunk: i was just waiting for u to love me back as much as i am lovin u
jaydhunk: then id be askin joseph to stay there
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i know...
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: and thats what i dont want to happen
jaydhunk: i still think of u
jaydhunk: a lot
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: alam mo after the outing... when i saw your reaction with kim
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: sobra kitang minahal
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: and then i realized that
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kung ganun mo ako kamahal
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: baka masira pareho relationship natin
jaydhunk: b, i dont wanna lose u
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: thats why kailangan ko kumilos and gumawa ng paraan for you not to love me that much
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: good thing nga dumating so omar
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: so makakaiwas ako sayo
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: b.....
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: me too
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i hvae been thinking a lot
jaydhunk: i always dream of u
jaydhunk: i always imajin u r with me
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: ive been thinking to stop all of this
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kase sobrang nakokonsensya na ako
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: pero i cant
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kse nga i care for you
jaydhunk:
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: b...
jaydhunk: u always make me cry
jaydhunk: hapi or sad
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: sorry
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: i dont mean too
jaydhunk: shud i see u still?
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: yep
jaydhunk: ung tyong 2 lang
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: yep
jaydhunk: ok
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: just give me time
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: give ourselves time b
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: darating si joseph
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: and babalik si omar sa first year anniv namin
jaydhunk: but when he comes home, he wont be goin anywhere
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: thats why ganito ako ngayon
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kung magulo isip mo B
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: mas magulo isip ko
toocoldtohandlebelowzero: kung alam mo lang
jaydhunk: its enuf b, that u let me love u, that u almost loved me more than him. its enuf. i can really smile now.
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dc na ulit ako. grrrrrrrrrr
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