Tuesday, August 16, 2005
1:43 PM

... exena sa taxi (na pang telenovela) ...

yesterday was a very tiring day.
and a very sad day as well.

the only thing that made me smile was the wasabi covered green peas that Des gave me.
such a sweet girl and a sweet confidante as well.

after work, my plan was to go home. sabay na daw kmi ni Des.
we were thinking if we would take a cab to Ayala or just take the MRT
(since we need to really really stretch r pockets, la pa sweldo! sa wed pa daw =()
it was already passed 8pm and di na mciado heavy ang traffic. nagtaxi kmi!

nsa cab na kmi, i texted my mom, asked her what's for dinnner.
fried chicken and pansit daw, ksi nakakalakad na si buding (our angel) ng malayo!
i texted joseph and told him that im on my way home na rin. di daw xa uwi.
and then super shortly after that, while chitchatting with Des,
i got a txt from mah bhe, IAN!
asking me if we cud meet up @ Galleria and watch a movie, kung gus2 ko lang daw. txtbak asap daw!
so, nataranta ang lola mo, buti na lang, di pa kmi nkakalayo, nsa shaw blvd pa lang kmi approaching EDSA.
i asked Des, pupuntahan ko ba si Ian (after venting to her my tampo and all)
she just stared at me, and said, yes, puntahan ko xa. kc daw para magkausap kmi. at mahal ko naman xa.
from that melodramatic moment, para akong nagising, kahit na pagod ako sa work, para akong nagkaroon ng extrang energy.
i asked her kung ok lang, and if she has enuf mullah for d cab, keri naman daw.
pagbaba ko ng cab, di ko lam kung saan pupunta, para ako tlgang lumulutang.
mixed emotions.
i was not expecting that kc.
then sumakay ako ng bus to Ortgas.
when i got to Galleria, i texted Ian immediately and asked him where he was.
was calling him but he wud still not answer the fone.
inakala ko pa nga na bka nagkamali sya ng natext!
then nagkita na kmi after about 15 mins.
tahimik kmi pareho nung una. then i just smiled, and i just forgot about everything.
then finally, i got to ask him what just happened, why he would not answer the fone, why he would not txt me, his simple answer was just bec he was hurt!
and he would not talk to me because i hurt him.
but he's okay na daw and that he missed me thats why he wanted to see me.
we went to the moviehaus na and watched Bewitched.
then after the movie, hinatid nya ako sa sakayan.

my learning:
1. i am in an entirely new setup, new relationship, sumthing different from my previous one. and so i have to adjust.
2. i have to know more about Ian. and i am not hurrying. there's no need.
3. i have to just be me.
4. i have to acknowledge the fact that i am beautiful, inside out, and that there will be times when i cannot see that, but people close to me would always remind me.

maybe i just got so excited with all that has been happening to me, and so when i had that drama ekluh last weekend, i wanted to go back to mah old self.

but i think i just have to move on. and friends, pls remind me not to hurry.
to savor every moment of my life.

coz if i wud not do that,
bka ang next na pullover exena ko e magkamali ako at pagsisihan ko lang. _______________________________________