Saturday, January 21, 2006
11:11 AM

... kiss of sadness ...

went to malate last nyt to have a date with jc.
its friday and i need some partyin and lovin.
besyds, work was hell this week.

at around 11pm, i met jc at synder's. stayed there for a while.
he sang some rnb songs and it was a really nice gesture.
i like it. jc sings in a way like no other.
i get weak whenever he winks or smiles at me when he sings.
and whenever he would kiss me infront of a crowd.
and then we went to TRP (the rainbow project).
there we met allan and mark.
we had some dinner and drinks.
we would hug and kiss from time to time like we were newlyweds.
then we went to BED.
we drank, danced, hugged, kissed, and had a great tym.
we partied till 5am.
when i arrived home, i txted him.
and our exchange has awaken me of some sort.
i was like holding on to this feeling for him for quite so long now.
and i just felt like it was ryt time for me to eventually express it.
and so i did. and i waited for his reply.
i didnt expect that he feels the same way too, BUT...
its just that he's not ready to commit at this time.
i was soooo happy. coz he was true and so sincere about it.
just like what i needed now. a sincere guy, sweet, passionate, yet true.

jc, like wat u wanted, i will always be here for u and will never leave you.
our kiss is sweet. but yes, its sad.
its sad because we feel empty.
but nevertheless, there's sincerity and hope in it.

this special connection we have is by far one of the greatest.
im not sure where this will take us.
but until we both have questions and doubts, we just have to be grateful,
that we have each other.
especially in times of sadness and longing.


jayd and jc
sad souls who kiss sadly : love's victim of unending mismatch. _______________________________________