Wednesday, June 14, 2006
7:23 PM

... somebody save me ...

im soooo down now
and i need some comforting
something to just make me feel better.

oh good god.
u never failed to spank me @ d ryt times.
yeah.
but i thank u for this challenge
and chapter in my life.

i love u mom.
whatever happens.
no matter what.

and if we have to part bec u need to,
even if it was u who we (my sis and i) have
been fighting for esp the past year,
i have no choice.
but to keep going.

one thing is clear here:
when parents fight,
or whatever parents decide on,
the kids are the ones who suffer.

its crazy.
some families do everything just to unite.
and here we are, my sis and i,
not wanting my dad to come back.

maybe its simply because we have embraced this new life we have now.
sumthing easy. and peaceful.
when he left us last year,
we were torn apart.
and now that we're getting the hang of it,
focusing our mindsets to these family setup we chose,
ul be coming back
just like that.

i cannot just agree to that.

i can always go and live by myself.
and take my sis with me perhaps.

its just so sad.

sadder than those in the movies. _______________________________________