Wednesday, February 07, 2007
3:35 PM

... sumbd fix me... ...

its d love month, everybody is excited.
not for some. not for me.
im actually in my super lowest point now.
a dear friend just left. alex. left yesterday morning. for Japan.
but that's something else.
there's something else.
i used to believe that karma hits u NOT in exact terms.
but with what is happening to me now, i think i might just believe otherwise.
KARMA myt hit you in exact terms. or worse.

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i am sorry mimi. could i have treated u better, this would have not happened. but i am learning from all this. the hard way, but yeah, its workin.

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most of my closest friends would know what im talkin ryt here. and i am very thankful to have them around. i know you are all there for me. always. as always.

but we also know, the matter of the heart is something that seems to be universal, but is also realtive. there are just soooo many gradiations. too many that sometimes you just don't wanna dwell on each.
how easy it would be if that would be the case.
if only we will just feel. just feel.
forget the complexities, forget the ifs and buts.
but life has it.
and i am bound to it.

...

i am really confused if id be staying and waiting, if id be fighting for this strong feeling i have been keeping. or i would just let go of it and move on. im hurting along the process anyways.
just the same, i need some fixin...

....

Fix You - Coldplay

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try, you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face
and I...

tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
tears stream down your face
and I...

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you


.....

i miss you jay. if i have to suffer from all these, i am willing to take all of it. if that would lead me to you. _______________________________________